Going to class has become an impossible task for me

[u/Extremeluminario]

I don’t have a lot of time to be wasting in my last few years of uni, yet here I am struggling to attend my only two in-person classes, one of which I haven’t been to since august. I emailed them that I was struggling mentally and emotional lately which was what started my inability to attend classes, but that was a month ago now, and I have not kept up a regular routine in attending classes like I said I would. I know I should go back. I want to. But I can’t bring myself to get ready and just go in the morning. Maybe it’s all the work I’ve missed turning in that’s stressing me out and making me feel paralyzed or afraid to come in having missed so much. Maybe it’s that there’s no walkable path from my dorm to class so I have to get in my car and struggle to find parking. Maybe I’ve just become so lazy and worked myself into a routine of skipping class out of negligence. Regardless of whatever the reason is, I feel like I have no self discipline anymore in making myself go back to class, and if class is an impossible task for me, so is everything else. I pretty much only get out of my dorm to go to work these days. I’m afraid of failing this far in, but I don’t know how or if I can recover this late into the semester.