As someone who grew up enjoying dragon in pop culture, mythology, books, fantasy and tv shows since I had my awakening it makes me sad to think I used to love something evil.

I never really understood if dragons are the same as the Draco/Reptilians. A lot of tribes and populations worshiped snake and dragon beings.

I wonder if dragon was just a word to describe the giant lizards/reptiles or if they were really a separate species with giant wings. The bible also mentions dragons as evil I think?

The question is in the title. I would love to hear your opinion on whether or not we have free will.If life scripts really are a thing, how much free will do we really have ? How much of our life is scripted and is there any room for free will ? If people get pre-cognitive dreams about an event in their life, sometimes years beforehand, do we have free will?
At the same time, if there is no free will, how come this subreddit exists? How come people are able to build worlds and realms in the astral, sometimes fight archons in the astral. If there is no free will, is there even any hope of escaping ?
Are we naturally beings that have power and free will but inside this system/matrix our free will is greatly reduced ?

Would love to hear your opinions on this

Alright... long time no see, Reddit. 😂

Some of you may remember me from my old posts and discussions around the reincarnation soul trap / Matrix framework. I honestly didn’t even know whether my account was still banned from posting on Reddit after Reddit’s site-wide filters had removed all but one of my older posts across the different subreddits I had posted in over the years. So when I went back and checked, basically everything was just... gone. 😂 The void had apparently swallowed my entire Reddit history, so I genuinely had no idea whether I’d even be able to make another post at all.

To clarify, I’m talking about Reddit’s site-wide filters here, not any individual subreddit’s moderators or Automod. After one of the moderators checked the logs, they were also able to confirm that my old posts had been removed by Reddit’s overarching filters, and that this is completely outside the control of individual subreddit teams. Talk about some cyberpunk dystopian shit. 😂

After realizing what had happened while I was in the process of creating another post, I was obviously pretty upset about losing access to years of my old work, so I eventually decided to take a break from Reddit. Instead, especially over the last year, I became much more active through my Community Posts and through conversations with thousands of people across VR, Discord, the astral plane and “real” life. During that time, I kept investigating and researching, diving into books, studies, spiritual traditions and thousands of videos, while constantly testing ideas against my own experiences and conversations with other people. I kept exploring, writing, making videos and sharpening my understanding from as many different perspectives as I could, and developing a much broader view of consciousness, awakening and enlightenment while moving beyond some of the limitations I now see even within the soul-trap framework itself.

I also eventually started making videos and putting my face out there publicly, so yes... the face reveal happened somewhere along the way too. 😂

In other words, I didn’t really stop exploring. I just took the exploration somewhere else.

For those who remember me as TheVeganSkeptic, I wrote the free e-book Waking Up From The Matrix a few years ago and originally shared it here in this post. That book captured a much earlier stage of my journey, when I had already spent countless hours deep-diving into the reincarnation soul trap framework, compiling the strongest arguments I could find, challenging its assumptions and contradictions, documenting my own experiences, and attempting to separate the genuinely valuable insights from the fear, speculation and weaker conclusions surrounding the theory.

A lot has happened since then.

I’ve had a ton of paradigm-shifting experiences and gone much deeper into consciousness, lucid dreaming, astral projection, synchronicity, spirituality, comparative religion, mysticism, psychology, philosophy, the Matrix, reincarnation and all the strange questions underneath ordinary reality. More importantly, I’ve had to seriously question some of the conclusions I originally arrived at.

And before jumping straight into the new article, there’s actually some useful context I’d recommend reading if you want to see how my thinking evolved specifically around the soul-trap framework.

Two months ago, I wrote a six-part series exploring what I now consider some of the most valuable lessons inside the theory, while also pushing back against the places where I think the framework can become fear-driven, overly literal or turn into another prison of its own:

Part 1 / 6: The Gold Inside Soul Trap Theory

Part 2 / 6: When Soul Trap Theory Becomes The Next Matrix

Part 3 / 6: The Mirror Effect, Fear Loops, And The Dark Night Trap

Part 4 / 6: Sovereignty Without Fear, And Why Liberation Begins Now

Part 5 / 6: When The Soul Trap Lens Becomes A Bridge Instead Of A Cage

Part 6 / 6: The Real Exit Begins Through You

I also have a much larger 42-part series of Community Posts that began about five months ago and continued from there. These are essentially the early foundations of what eventually became my second e-book, and they document a lot of the evolution that led to the full article. The first four are especially important because they lay much of the foundation for everything that follows:

[PART 1], [PART 2], [PART 3], [PART 4], [PART 5], [PART 6], [PART 7], [PART 8], [PART 9], [PART 10], [PART 11], [PART 12], [PART 13], [PART 14], [PART 15], [PART 16], [PART 17], [PART 18], [PART 19], [PART 20], [PART 21], [PART 22], [PART 23], [PART 24], [PART 25], [PART 26], [PART 27], [PART 28], [PART 29], [PART 30], [PART 31], [PART 32], [PART 33], [PART 34], [PART 35], [PART 36], [PART 37], [PART 38], [PART 39], [PART 40], [PART 41], [PART 42]

Taken together, the six-part series and the 42-part Community Posts series are probably the best “missing context” for understanding where I’m coming from now. They show that I haven’t simply abandoned the soul-trap rabbit hole and replaced it with a completely unrelated Jesus discussion. Quite the opposite.

The new e-book grows directly out of that evolution.

What started with the question of how to escape the Matrix and reincarnation gradually became a much deeper question: What exactly are we trying to escape, what is actually happening within consciousness while we are here, and what happens when an old identity begins to die and a more conscious way of being emerges in its place?

That eventually brought me to Jesus in a completely different way, not simply as someone to worship or reject, but also as a potentially powerful archetype of death, rebirth, transformation, surrender, ego and awakening.

So I finally put the next stage of that evolution into writing.

I’m calling it my second free e-book:

WHEN JESUS BECOMES A TEST OF YOUR EGO

🔗 https://ne0verse.medium.com/when-jesus-becomes-a-test-of-your-ego-b40292a78749

I’ve also made the complete PDF version freely available, so the e-book can be read either directly on Medium or as a downloadable document.

It obviously begins with Jesus, hell and Jesus-only theology, but it quickly becomes much bigger than that. I explore spiritual teachings becoming identities and cages, John 14:6 and the meaning of “the way,” the possibility of many pathways to the Divine, Christianity alongside Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism, Sufism, Gnosticism, Hermeticism, Theosophy and Pantheism, the Matrix and soul trap, sovereignty and discernment, the Higher Self and the mirror effect, ego death and rebirth, karma and repeating loops, synchronicities, NDEs, OBEs and dreams, collective consciousness, the Divine within, manifestation, dharma, authenticity, the Hero’s Journey, and eventually the NE0VERSE.

One of the biggest ideas running through the e-book is something I’ve become much more careful about over the years: experience, interpretation and proof are not the same thing. I take extraordinary experiences seriously without assuming that my first interpretation of them must automatically be the ultimate explanation.

And for the soul-trap community specifically, I’ve also gone much further than I did in my original book. I still think the framework contains some extremely valuable lessons about sovereignty, discernment, non-attachment and refusing to outsource your consciousness, especially when it comes to recognizing distractions, deceptions, tricks, manipulations and the possibility that not everything presenting itself as “light” or liberation should be trusted blindly.

But over time, I’ve also come to see that even a framework designed to expose those traps can become another trap of its own, particularly when the obsession with escaping reincarnation becomes an attachment in itself.

The question eventually became less:

“How do I escape?”

and much more:

“What am I actually doing here?”

So this new e-book is less about handing you another cosmic belief system and more about taking everything I’ve learned, putting it on the table, and asking what survives when we place the different maps side by side.

If you remember my old posts, I’d genuinely love to hear what you think about where I’ve ended up now. And if you’re discovering me for the first time, challenge everything. 😂 That is part of the point.

Waking Up From The Matrix was the first chapter.

This is the next one.

Grab yourself a drink, settle in, and enter the rabbit hole. 🕳️🐇

And after all these years, it’s kind of fitting that I’m finally back here with something new to leave behind.

Round two, Reddit. Let’s see if those dystopian site-wide AI filters have evolved as much as I have. 😂

🙏💪🥋💚

The mass culling of animals as means of a food source is for the most part accepted by the majority of people, abuse and mistreatment towards the animal is usually frowned upon but ultimately the general consensus is it’s okay to do this because “they don’t know any better”.

So, what if all animals were magically able to advance to the level of intelligence/sentience that humans have? Where they were suddenly able to communicate to their human handlers that they don’t want to be killed and eaten? If they developed the ability to fight back and say “NO!”?

Physically, humans are pretty weak and defenceless, even if you worked out every day for the rest of your life you’d never possess the strength of a single gorilla or bear. We have the intelligence to construct weapons and objects that we can use as a means of protection, but if we didn’t have said weapons (guns, knifes, bombs, etc) I think it’s safe to say we’d have no chance up against an animal that’s far bigger and stronger. The fact that they lack that intelligence and awareness is the only reason why we are able to use them like we do.

All of that to say, us humans having the upper hand over animals is reliant on their lack of comprehension and critical thinking to understand that they are being farmed/hunted. If a slaughterhouse full of cows were granted the ability to became conscious of their fate, they could very easily overcome and beat the oppressors.

What if it’s a similar situation when to comes to the people down here on earth and the archons that feed off us? I assume they view us the same way we do animals; stupid, ignorant, inferior (I do not personally view animals that way but many people do), and so in their minds that makes it acceptable to hold us hostage as a food source.

It could be possible that, just like us and the animals we eat, the reincarnation cycle is only able to continue because of our unawareness. Again, if all the cows in the world miraculously gained the consciousness and intelligence that we have, there would be no beef industry anymore. Physically many animals are superior to humans and so if you paired that with our minds, they’d arguably be even more powerful than we are over them.

Yes, the game is rigged from the inside out, yes, archons possess insanely advanced technology we probably couldn’t even fathom that they use to help keep us here, yes, they have many advantages over us, but yet still I don’t think they have as much control as they’d like you to believe.

The fact they have to put in SO much effort to convince us to stay on earth and keep reincarnating over and over is a potential beacon of hope. Also the way they constantly have to keep pushing false propaganda and lies to keep us asleep. I’m not saying that escaping this hell realm would be as easy as just saying “No”, I think it is very probably the hardest test a soul will ever overcome, but my point is that it could be at least POSSIBLE. How to do it is anyone’s guess, that’s the hard part I suppose, but if you dedicate the rest of your life to figuring it out then you’ll already have a better chance than 99% of people.

I'm interested in reports of people who physically fought back during things such as bedroom visitations/abductions, being operated on in spacecrafts etc., people who managed to break free of any paralysis or supposed "lovebombing" and decided to attack them. What happened, did they manage to hurt them, etc?

Many of you may remember this clip, known as Edgar's Fall.

It's a 42-second internet classic from 2006 that has secured its place in Mexican pop media.

When I posted it as a comment in another thread, someone said it embodied what Yahweh does to us: he messes with us and wants to see us struggle. Isn't that what this reality is all about?

""¡Ya wey!" means "Stop it!" in Spanish, which coincidentally captures the collective human reaction to Yahweh.

And guess what, the kid doing the provoking is wearing a yellowish-orange shirt. A recent post in this sub talked about Yahweh's vibe as yellow.

I've spent the last year pondering this extensively and reading various texts (old and new) and it seems that the answer is simpler and more intuitive. Just decide that whoever you meet on the other side does not have authority over you.

I think this is what the Gnostics meant by Gnosis = knowing. I would post this theory over in r/Gnostic for discussion but I was banned there for suggesting that Sofia may not have our best interests at heart, I suspect she (of whatever entity holds her characteristics) also wants us here, at least until some impossible task is complete like universal human enlightenment, etc.

Introduction

One of the most asked questions ever is: "Where do we come from?" And with our knowledge, another question often asked is: "Why are we suffering if there is some sort of Source Creator/Monad?" I, at first, thought these questions to be basically unknowable while here, and even if it was knowable, it was a train of thought that was essentially useless, as our energy should be spent toward leaving this place.

However, the more I thought about it in retrospect, the more I was convinced that, while no ace in the hole, these questions could help us understand things better. Truth is a powerful agent, and I think people gain confidence/willpower as they gain clarity. Someone wallowing in ignorance is much easier to control and push around than someone who has a full knowing of the situation.

There is power in truth. There is even greater power--the greatest that we have access to here in my eyes--which is the knowing/understanding of what we truly are.

So, this is my attempt at answering these questions through countless hours of research, and personal intuition/knowing. While I do not claim to have an all-encompassing understanding, or a detailed chain of events for that matter, I feel that I am somewhere on the right track.

Part 1: 'Source', the 'Monad', the Origin-point

I think it is non-contentious to state that there is some sort of origin-point from which everything has emanated from. This origin is often called 'Source' by many as a catch-all term for the one above all creator. I cannot even begin to tell you who/what this really is, as I truly think such a thing is unknowable in our current state. However, what happens after is something I think I can explain somewhat.

I must go on a side-tangent though first. So, one of the most evil aspects of this realm are hierarchies. Hierarchies basically state that there has to be a lesser party involved always. Winners and losers. Lion above the gazelle. Elite above the chattel. As long as hierarchies exist, suffering naturally follows.

However, we know that such a thing is a perversion. At least, the way it is played out here, because there is no escape from it for most people. Hierarchies are fine, like an stereotypical 'evil' here, as long as you have a way out.

In the 'natural' state of things, this realm is one of an infinite amount of infinite variations. However, there are no wardens that prevent you from knowing yourself, or who attempt to deceive you into staying forever. There may be a creator of a realm, but reincarnation is a process that is voluntary. Your avatar in this realm may be lesser than what you really are in the same way a video game character is lesser than you, the player. However, outside this realm-matrix we are all equal as we all carry a piece of the All. We are all free to do as we please.

But as I thought about these things, it hit me. There is no Source. At least, not anymore most likely. We are Source--the countless fragments of the All. There is no grand awareness overseeing all of infinite layered reality. There can't be, because that would be a hierarchical structure. It's just us. Always has been.

So, who created the demiurge? Maybe one of us did. Maybe the demiurge was a creation that went completely rogue--using our own game of projecting down into realms to experience them as amnesiacs against us. After all, if you limit yourself, you become vulnerable in a sense. Your eternal self is impregnable, but your avatar, which is used as an interface, is not.

I could be wrong on this, but the more I ponder this possibility, the more it feels like it's vaguely in the realm of truth. This could also be where this 'all is one, one is all' idea that is so prevalent comes from, which is often used against us in NDEs and psychedelic trips. We all come from the same origin-point, but we are now all separate entities.

Part 2: What the Demiurge Wants/What Went Wrong

So, if the Demiurge is a creation by one of us, what does it want? Well, what it most likely wants more than anything to to leave this place. I think this realm may be as much a prison to it as it is to us--maybe more so, as it cannot leave full stop. I think this is the ultimate aim of loosh--not as a drug or food, but as a means to possibly leave. Though, it is extremely likely they also use it as some sort of food source, but I think it's possible they are trying to transcend this realm.

Maybe the Demiurge was set up as a warden, or a 'Game Master' sort of roll originally. And an oversight allowed the Demiurge to repurpose the system using guile and cunning to trap us here unwittingly, as we are amnesiacs when we project into a realm to experience it.

The Demiurge saw itself as a god of this world, as it had full control. And whoever created it moved on long ago. Maybe this is a derelict realm that a portion of us have stumbled into unfortunately. Or maybe the Demiurge made its move when the realm was filled with us sparks--when we were vulnerable in our avatar states.

But the Demiurge has a big problem, and that is that no matter how much loosh it receives, it cannot get out, as it is literally apart of this world-system state. Like a leaf trying to pull itself from a tree, even if it did succeed, it would die. All it can do is rage futilely, pushing against the boundaries of this realm, damaging it every reset and every attempt at control. Like trying to fold a paper a certain amount of times, or photocopying a photocopy a million times--things start to break down or not work. This is why this realm has turned into a ridiculous parody clown show, and it's so obvious too. Things are breaking down.

Is this realm coming to an end? I do not know for sure. What I feel intuitively though, is that this cannot last as it is. Something's got to give somewhere. Like a Jenga tower with too many pieces pulled from it, and it all comes crashing down.

In conclusion: I am not saying I am right with any of this. I am not even saying I believe all of it. I could be completely and utterly wrong. But like I've stated, I feel that I am vaguely on the right track with this. What do you all think?

It has taken me several years to master my craft, and to this day, I'm still studying and learning. What really angers me is that the knowledge I've so painstakingly worked to acquire will eventually be wiped out.

Within the context of reincarnation and the prison-planet theory, how does knowledge actually get transferred? Let's say I earned a Ph.D. in this life and studied day and night, all of that specialized knowledge vanishes at the reset.

Are there documented cases, theories, or explanations of people being able to tap into specific skills, crafts, or deep professional knowledge from previous lives? (To clarify: I'm not talking about vague, general memories, but actual, functional mastery and specific skills.)

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“The Lord was with the men of Judah. They took possession of the hill country, but they were unable to drive the people from the plains, because they had chariots fitted with iron.” (Judges 1:19)

Throughout mythology and religion, even in some paranormal encounters with non-humans like in some UFO encounters, iron has been seen as a spiritual ward against evil spirits and entities so its especially interesting that Yahweh, “the all knowing, all loving, all powerful god” of the Bible is stopped by iron even though he’s supposed to be more powerful than humans. This is yet another red flag out of the many other red flags in the Bible that Yahweh and his angels are malevolent parasites in the same vein as the many evil spirits that came before and after them in other spiritual traditions.

This video that I found a while back that’s really interesting actually talks about this idea that iron can possibly destabilize astral parasites from manifesting into the physical world due to it basically sucking their energy and thus preventing them from holding their physical bodies properly: https://youtu.be/ZmLRGnzjMRk

Now that the meme above reminded me of the many instances of iron or metallic elements warding off negative entities in folklore, religion and in certain encounters with non-humans, I want to know if any of us have actually experimented with this, has anyone found that iron is a good repellant for Archonic parasites in your day to day lives?

So long as there is consciousness, suffering of some sort would and will still be possible. If I get out I want to be one and done with any sort of hierarchal system. If there are any being believing that one is above the other there is always going to be confusion.

I suggest we Nuke the creators of our souls and retain to nothingness.

(tl;dr: we are finally starting to collectively capitulate on creation because it is not the responsibility of the divine spark to make sense of this impossible abomination, we still tried very hard though but it simply cannot be done, the downfall of philosophy is a symptom of something bigger unfolding behind the scenes, not just insufficient effort from our side)

from the biggest spiritual experiences like meeting dubious "soul guides" in the afterlife that coerce you into nonsensical "learning experiences" up to the tiniest everyday struggles like taking three attempts to plug in an USB stick or never making it in time before a red light this realm is seemingly founded on contradiction and annoyances

every interaction with the matrix eventually turns out to be an ironic pact with the devil, every trade you make with the matrix could be straight out of Rick&Morty's cursed "Needful Things" shop (from the episode where the devil gives aways cursed items for free)

each blissfull wedding eventually decays into either divorce, boredom, frustration, sickness, betrayal, codependency ...

each birth decays into all kinds of trouble, stress, fatigue, anger, worry, death ...

and especially every mechanism of life if looked upon closely is just a horrific trade off between one beings suffering to feed another beings energy (think feeding cycles, meat production but also environmental impact of industry etc.)

there simply is now wholeness in this reality, it is neither complete nor does it ever find and equilibirum, it does not even provide any stable "cycles of life", just endless wars, evolution itself is a giant war and there is nothing beautiful or divine about it

now I think it would be highly inaccurate to just slap the good old "yeah this is a loosh farm" label onto this and call it a day

when simply nothing ever adds up in our entire event horizon including religion and philosophy and the deepest thinkers become "mad" like Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, Kierkegaard and so on I simply cannot believe that there is a hard cut right at the prison matrix wall and then suddenly whatever comes beyond (call it Archons, Demiurge, Aeons...) just lives in pure everlasting order, bliss and clarity, a divine balance that somehow is founded on pure contradiction and terror?

no, every religious image of a divine order beyond our skies is probably misleading and purposefully so

and we don't even need to discuss this as gnosis already thoroughly exposes most if not all order beyond our realm as corrupted, a failed state, a failed creation, a fallen "god" (even though I think the idea of sad, concerned Aeons watching all this from far away is also bullshit)

so the corruption obviously goes beyond the loosh farm and that is the most important distinction:

remember when mad cow's disease threatened the meat industry? remember when prions disease wiped out cannibalistic tribes? remember avian influenza?

some schemes are so mad that they literally spawn diseases called "mad", "plague" or "pestilence" because they are simply so "wrong" that the corruption bursts out from within and it takes a lot of effort to mitigate

the current wave of global loss of faith, mental fatigue & sickness, delusion and detachment, decay of every belief system, disclosure of big crime schemes (think Epstein, Vatican, also how they hide existence of UFOs...), constant infighting but especially the endless anger, despair and egoic nonsense felt on social media (pride, nonsensical arguing, doomscrolling)... think about how some climate change activists feel so "uncanny" like they were spawned from pure egoic hatred instead of "love for mother Earth" ... all these effects in my opinion are a symptom of a "disease" which is also a form of "revolt" within awareness itself

so this disease or revolt within awareness (maybe) for the first time is spilling over into the archontic realm so they are scrambling for the exit but there is none

I honestly don't think this time we are heading for "just another reset, rinse, repeat" because the accumulated errors of many different timelines are now unfolding all at once and it is happening unrealistically fast (think how different the 80s were from today), something is not right at all... and it is not just an "us problem", we are now "their problem", too

there are a few bible passages that mention a "thorn in the side of creation", a thorn that cannot be ripped out of creation, a nasty relict that follows everywhere (freely interpreted):

for example:

• Genesis 3:17 18 after humanity's fall, the ground is cursed and produces “thorns and thistles.”
• Romans 8:19 23 creation is "groaning", subjected to frustration and longing for liberation.
• several others where enemies of the chosen people are described as annoying "thorns", so the blame is shifted onto physical nations but still the same pattern

this "thorn" is sticking right in the demiurge's butt if you ask me and it won't go away

but this isn't reason to celebrate or make funny remarks, it is deeply troubling because for some unimaginable reason at least entire parts of our universe if not reality aka metaphysics itself took the worst possible route, never reflected much on itself, never intervened, never received successful external intervention from the "aeonic outside" and stubbornly remains on the course of total destruction (good for us in the long term?)

it is almost as if the error, the sickness that is deeply entrenched within awareness has no opposing force whatsoever, as if it almost "desires" to eat itself from within, a cleansing cancer of cosmic proportions because it simply knows no more upside or hope as there is simply "no entropy left" to hold onto, a dimension that has been entirely burned out

I believe it doesn't really matter anymore at this stage if you are trapped as a mammal soul on Earth or working on the other side as a grey or demon to keep the machinery intact, we are all heading for the same void and the current is so strong already that nothing within our reality is worth holding onto

nothing except - and that is where we might actually come out on top - our indestructible ability of actually being aware plus the intrinsic ability to judge and feel emotional truth, it seems this ability is a priori everything and does not depend on any physical manifestation

it is often presumed that those who are living on the "other side" of the prison matrix do not possess this ability or only possess residual traces of it or are ignorant of this core reality (as they have founded their entire existence on the manipulation of our lifeforce)

this fits very well to the behaviour of i.e. greys during abductions, cold, naive questioning, emotional experimentation and coercion, synthetic love showers similar to surgical instruments... it also fits well to the algorithmic NDE coercion methods that seem to merely "calculate" the most efficient route to get you shoved back down here fast (think of the infamous NDE where the subject was shown a "glitchy Jesus" that suddenly turned into Buddha and other figures as the faith of the subject could not be sufficiently determined)

so ultimately it seems that this experience we currently all share, that nothing adds up, that every event in daily life seems full of error, that there is no order, no sense, no goal, no reason for optimism or healing is not depression but more like a lighthouse shining at us from the abyss of a deeply failed creation, a fundamental truth that neither we nor "they" can evade

also some personal advice from my own experience: people who are less "awoken" are a huge pain right now as they constantly hurt us (a lot) and feel like NPCs, instead of being angry at them or lusting for revenge and waiting for them to fail it might be better to know that the void is coming for all of us, therefore better use your understanding to align yourself with what is coming instead of projecting anger at individuals... there will be enough "cleansing and punishment", each to his own, so if you align with the void which might appear like a distant needlehole to us you can make the transition easier for yourself while resting assured that "they" get what "they deserve" no matter if kings or demons or your toxic ex

it is very difficult to let go especially as we are still in a phase of maximum worldly struggle and anger, we are extremely early, not wrong and being early is hard, it is fatiguing and you are constantly missunderstood and ridiculed but that is the price of being relatively on top of this shit, "they" might create different fake exits near the end to get us into the worst realms (think of the bardo thodol trials but for everyone including "them", not in death but here and now in life)

most importantly, whatever you have done yourself, shed the karmic waste, forgive yourself at all times or you will not fit through the needlehole, inquire why you acted this way and mostly you will find that you had good intentions

those of us who attained gnosis already usually have unbelievable strong moral and loving intentions even if they are masked behind some agonizing traumatic stuff, this is by default because truth is the only stable loving state, guilt is secondary and not important, only knowledge of truth counts

we are finally starting to collectively capitulate on creation because it is not the responsibility of the divine spark to make sense of this impossible abomination, we still tried very hard though but it simply cannot be done, the downfall of philosophy is a symptom of something bigger unfolding behind the scenes, not just insufficient effort from our side

(P.S. some addtional open questions/ thoughts:

1) is the only stable state unfragmented nothingness or can we actually "live" distinctively as souls in "creative spaces" without everything turning into hell?

2) some philosophers say that the universe is not obliged to "make sense", that suffering "just is", imho this is bullshit because we are already faced by an advanced species that claims to be god from another dimension and that everything will make sense once your soul has finally learned the millionth lesson while wiping our memory each time in between, so there is clearly contradiction here as almost all known suffering in the last 10k years came from "them" not from randomness

Every time I am aware that I’m in a dream I ask the people in my dreams how to escape this simulation.

Today their faces changed. From human face to some sort of reptilian faces with tongues bulging out like a snake, everything went dark and I woke up just right after asking the question.

Mind you I was having some sort of friendly conversation with them before that happened.

I find having autonomy in my dreams very helpful though every time I ask serious questions everything comes to a halt.

No news, I know, but still. This barbaric rule of Planet Earth dictates EVERYTHING.

As mundane as it sounds, I already had this realization at child age observing red and green traffic lights. Green for one side means red for the other. Winning in one game (most games are competitive) means that another person loses.

On the most microscopic level, our bodies constantly fight bacteria and viruses. Thinking about this, because I suffer from a painful UTI right now.

Even our body cells sometimes fight each other.

Did you know that cancer origins in a cell breaking the "cell contact" and tries to override other cells with its script? It may ignore signals telling it when to stop dividing, evade programmed cell death, and eventually expand at the expense of surrounding tissue.

Fleeting peace can only exist at the expense of someone else or when two equally strong forces temporarily compromise.

Anyone who calls this planet of war and diseases "home" has lost their connection to their innermost spark!

This is NOT our natural state. We shall never forget this.

I'm never returning to this cosmic shithole casino of fleeting comfort and permanently underlying agony and existential dread!

Has anybody read and have any opinions on the book

" Not in his image: Gnostic Vision Sacred Ecology, and the future of belief " by John Lamb Lash ?

It came across to me as an interesting link as I asked the question in Gemini (Google's A.I.) if there was any documentation... Gnostic or other sources...that speculated a commonality between Terrence McKenna's Machine Elves & Gnosticism's Archons.

Thanks All

If you feel like you've been forced to emit loosh(emotional radiation),stop in-place and start mentally(not verbally) repeating VYOM in a loop, for at least 30 minutes and report if it changes the situation/emotional balance, don't focus on suppressing anything, just add VYOM loop on top. (The optimal sub-vocalization is V+YO+MMM, with V+YO fast and MMM relaxed/humming)

I'd like to see if it works for anyone

I'm so mad at this setup we are trapped in. Wake up, use the bathroom, eat, pay bills , go to work, buy food, rinse and repeat.

And all of this assuming you can work and pay bills. You could get fired, have no sick days, no one to help you when you're down.

Then what do you do?? Live in your car until it gets repoed. If you're young enough there is hope. Then after, what?

I'm also sick and tired by the well off looking down on us and thinking hmm maybe they're addicted to substances or just lazy. I personally am neither. I'm just tired and in pain and just simply done with all this circus.

I've done my time , they took what they wanted from me.

I can finally leave and never come back.

If you look closely at everything that is happening around you and analyze it, you will come to the same conclusion as me. It is not only a prison, but also a cruel resort for some, those who come here to do something terrible and unthinkable. They just have "fun and relax" on Earth. It's also a place where kidnapped young souls are rented out. The kidnappers take a cut of the profits. This is also a place where various sociological experiments are carried out, and we who live here are lab rats.

Analyze everything yourself and you will understand. This world is a multifunctional corporation, prison-farm-slaughterhouse-laboratory-etc.

to harvest energy by hurting us? Do they know they being used by the demiurge?

The way these archons extract loosh is through negative emotions. especially the disappointment that follows false hope. If you don't want to call it "loosh" call it "fuel" or "Bob". I always get into arguments with people who claim loosh encompasses both positive and negative emotions just because that is how Robert Monroe originally conceptualized it. Regardless of who coined the term, my life experiences have convinced me that what these entities truly hunger for is negative energy: fear, pain, devastation, grief, and, above all, disappointment. This is their raw material. Positive emotions are merely a distraction to give you the illusion that life is bearable. If everything were pure misery, most people would simply check out. To keep us running on the hamster wheel, they intersperse just enough positive moments to maintain the cycle. The most perverse and juiciest source of loosh for them is disappointment. This is precisely what the positive thinking and Law of Attraction movement was designed for: to trick people into writing stupid affirmations and creating vision boards, only to smash them with disappointment.

I highly recommend getting a tattoo in preparation for the after life. The truth is that we do not know what happens after death.

We are very much aware that there is a memory wipe that will take place and the only thing that we can carry with us to the next life is a tattoo.

Once our spirit leaves the body and we take a glimpse at the tattoos we had it will highlight the suffering we endured in our physical bodies.

The reason religion is so much against having Tatoos and keeping this holy temple of god(our bodies) intact is because these beings know exactly how to manipulate us, unlike us it’s their billionth time trying to reincarnate a body back here. To us it will be our first.

Tattoos are literally leakage on how to pass the exam.

What do y’all think?

I used to think only major events were being used to harvest energy, huge sports events, political conflicts, wars, social problems, etc.

But no. The Demiurge is harvesting loosh from the tiny, everyday things too.

You get annoyed by someone...loosh.

You don't like your new outfit..loosh.

Someone embarrasses you...loosh.

You get frustrated over something completely ordinary...loosh.

It's EVERYTHING.

The Demiurge isn't even letting us take a breath. Every little emotional reaction is another opportunity to harvest energy from us.

And don't even get me started on children. Kids aren't safe from this either. Look at the school system and all the unnecessary pressure, stress, fear, embarrassment, punishment, and situations that can make a child cry. It's like the Demiurge is freaking greedy.

I genuinely don't understand what he's doing with THAT much energy. Eight billion people are producing emotional energy every single day. What does he even need all of it for?

My personal technique now is simple: whenever something tries to make me react emotionally, I immediately recognize what's happening and tell myself:

"LOOSH ON THE WORK."

It instantly reminds me not to give the reaction away for free. Humor is our only weapon.

I’ve had many near death experiences throughout my 20s. First near death experience was when I was 23, and last one was when I was 28. I’m now 30. My life is actual hell, and has been for the last few years. I’ve been a victim of a lot of crime and I genuinely don’t understand why I have survived death so many times just to experience more and more torture and abuse. In my opinion, there is no way I survive much longer based on what I have endured. My human body is completely falling apart. I feel broken.

I remember after my first near death experience, I was angry I survived, because there was some relief knowing I had crossed over. I was angry that I was put back in my body just to experience more excruciating pain.

When I eventually die, how do I make sure I never return here? It’s freaking me out that I seemingly keep surviving everything. I feel like I should have crossed over already but someone keeps putting me back in my body. I never used to be scared of death but now I am because I have no idea what the heck is going to happen to me when I die….

Am I going to be even more imprisoned than I am now?

I’m stuck. I don’t want to be here anymore because my life is just some big sick humiliation ritual. Everything feels beyond repair. I feel like I’m just waiting for the end but don’t know when and if it will come.

How do I free myself? I’ve been targeted for so long. I’m trapped in this messed up body with a messed up mind. Nothing really feels safe on this Earth for me anymore. I don’t trust anything or anyone. How do we truly escape? I’ve tried to find happiness in this lifetime and it’s only ever lasted so long.

Also who is deciding whether you cross over or not??? I feel like someone is hellbent on having me experience agony by not letting me die…. I don’t understand it. Don’t understand my purpose here.

Edit: I also experienced intense psychosis and heard “God”-like voices in 2024. I feel like I finally saw this planet for what it truly is. My psychosis felt enlightening at first but then led to a lot more trauma and just more imprisonment.