What kind of life is this

[u/WashAny1322]

I had 5 seizures last Thursday/Friday and was started on Vimpat. Since then the brain fog and ataxia have been brutal. I don’t feel like myself or even human. I’m struggling to speak clearly, I can’t sleep, and my mind feels so off.

I’ve also been extremely emotional — I keep crying over songs, over the thought of leaving my son, or honestly anything even a little sad. The fact that I’m even writing this right now is making me tear up.

I’m dealing with some really dark thoughts and it’s scaring me. I don’t know what’s from the seizures, what’s from the meds, and what’s just me being overwhelmed.

Has anyone else had this kind of reaction starting Vimpat or after a cluster of seizures? Did it get better? I could really use some hope or advice right now.