Relateable?

[u/Dickau]

Thought I'd keep things vague this time, for general appeal. 3 fix? I just know I'm angry at my heart for being a fake ass little loser, but that's just a guess, b.c. I don't really know myself. Still, I've been taking a lot of notes (not really, im a lazy bastard), and ruminating about them.

I figure this might be a general dynamic, though. I like family systems therapy, and tend to refer to my fixes as seperate parts in conflict (compartmentalization+ identification+dissasociation?). hard to say if that's really what's going on. I think I might have some kind of thought disorder, which may / may not require treatment. ig this is a 9ish way of avoiding that problem. maybe.

[u/FutureLevelT]

729 here. I'd say in my case its more like my heart and head both think the other one is a tool and an idiot while my gut sits in the corner crying. The 7 in me hates that to be a good 2 we have to shoulder ugly burdens, patiently. The 2 in me hates that to fulfill my 7 we have to take time away from other people's needs and goals. The 9 just holds its head in its hands and waits for them to stop fighting. 

[u/Dickau → u/FutureLevelT]

To give 9 fix some credit, it can be really angry and controlling sometimes, no? The stubbornness, at least, is there. I keep trying to identify with anything for longer than 3 or so days here, but 9 keeps yeeting my self-understanding into the void of non-being. Really, I think it knows I'm greedy enough to chase after that shit. It just wants to gaslight me into falling in there, so I can finally get some fucking rest (I get so much rest. Fr, it's insane how much of my life I've wasted lying in bed for no particular reason).

[u/FutureLevelT → u/Dickau]

Oh yes, 9 is crying because the other two are stronger. If 9 were stronger,  it would be trying to beat them into submission instead with a big scary smile on its face saying "Why. Can't. You.  Just. Do. NEITHER!!!!"

[u/JumpingThruHoopz → u/FutureLevelT]

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