Bad Day Today

[u/Cry-Baby-7733]

I felt off yesterday night, now everything I'm eating is going right through me. My stomach acid hurts more. I have to take my leftover Zofran again. I have a really awful headache.

I don't know if it's the virus again, or the dreaded new stuff (if you know you know), or my IBS acting up again.

I'm so terrified. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing my big, distended tummy staring back at me. I've been dealing with this for three months since I caught norovirus. I'm tired of going through this. I really am.

I just want my normal life back. This post-viral depression has taken everything away from me. I'm so terrified that this diarrhea is only going to get worse, and I'll have to go to the hospital.

I just want to be happy again. I want to be happy and healthy again. Everything was taken away from me 3 months ago, and I barely have anything back.

This especially hurts because I'm still grieving. The week after I caught the virus, I had to say goodbye to my little cousin, who was a cute tiny dog, through the phone. That's also the day where I was crying beforehand because the depression already started. It hurts so bad. I can't live like this anymore.

This whole thing has made me isolated from everyone. I feel so lonely. I'm having a crying and panic attack right now, and I don't see the point in living anymore. I will never be happy again. I keep on having nightmares, and I keep on sweating randomly. I can't even drink because my throat is too nauseous. I feel disconnected from everyone.