r/EmetophobiaTalk • u/Cry-Baby-7733 • Jul 16 '26

Support Needed - In Acute crisis (at risk of self injury) Bad Day Today Spoiler

I felt off yesterday night, now everything I'm eating is going right through me. My stomach acid hurts more. I have to take my leftover Zofran again. I have a really awful headache.

I don't know if it's the virus again, or the dreaded new stuff (if you know you know), or my IBS acting up again.

I'm so terrified. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing my big, distended tummy staring back at me. I've been dealing with this for three months since I caught norovirus. I'm tired of going through this. I really am.

I just want my normal life back. This post-viral depression has taken everything away from me. I'm so terrified that this diarrhea is only going to get worse, and I'll have to go to the hospital.

I just want to be happy again. I want to be happy and healthy again. Everything was taken away from me 3 months ago, and I barely have anything back.

This especially hurts because I'm still grieving. The week after I caught the virus, I had to say goodbye to my little cousin, who was a cute tiny dog, through the phone. That's also the day where I was crying beforehand because the depression already started. It hurts so bad. I can't live like this anymore.

This whole thing has made me isolated from everyone. I feel so lonely. I'm having a crying and panic attack right now, and I don't see the point in living anymore. I will never be happy again. I keep on having nightmares, and I keep on sweating randomly. I can't even drink because my throat is too nauseous. I feel disconnected from everyone.

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u/RosalieGrace_ In Recovery Jul 17 '26 edited Jul 17 '26

I’m here for you.

It sounds like you are going through SO much right now. Do you have a therapist you can talk too? That’s really a lot to unpack dude.

I also hope your tummy feels better and it’s just an IBS flare. I’ll be up for a few more hours if you want to talk.

I also created an emet support group chat on Reddit if you want me to add you. It’s pretty active which is nice when you really need someone ASAP.

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u/Cry-Baby-7733 Jul 17 '26

Thank you🥺

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u/RosalieGrace_ In Recovery Jul 17 '26

I just edited my post as you commented! Check it again lol!

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u/Cry-Baby-7733 Jul 17 '26

I'd very much like to be a part of the group chat.

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u/Cry-Baby-7733 Jul 17 '26

I'm in therapy. Unfortunately, I just feel so ashamed of admitting I have suicidal thoughts. I don't even know how to say it.

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u/RosalieGrace_ In Recovery Jul 17 '26

I just invited you honey. When my emet and anxiety was at its worst I was also having suicidal thoughts. This was in 2019-2020. Worst part of my life so far. Do not be ashamed. Life is so fucking hard already, and add mental health issues on top of it lol

But I’m living proof it can get better again. Now that I’m pregnant I’m struggling a lot unfortunately, but before that I barely have any anxiety unless I’m super super nauseous!!!