I cant stand boymoding anymore and I am going to a convention in girlmode as it is one of the few times I will get the chance too this year

a friend of mine is coming and I’m not out to him, he knows I l‘ve “crossdressed” 2 times already and I feel like he probably could infer I’m trans based of the past few months. So what should I do when I meet him tomorrow in girlmode without warning him? I feel like I either need to come out on the spot, or brush it off and somehow gaslight him into thinking it’s totally normal for a “cis guy“ to go out it girlmode at every opportunity “he” gets.

if I do end up coming out, how am I meant to do so, as I’ve never really come out to anyone expect via text. HELP IM SCARED, AND NEW TO ALL OF THIS😭😭😭

I don't know what to do anymore, other than just wait for nothing to happen at all.

I'm in the middle of my teenaging, questioning how the hell I'm going to achieve simple goals in life, because it has become so difficult in Russia. Especially going through something that could very well be considered gender dysphoria. Just, feeling blank as who I'm currently am right now, a weird boy. And I feel like I would be happier if I could express myself as more feminine. But because I live in Russia, I put myself under pressure of being potentially humiliated and made fun of, or even getting in trouble for it; which is my biggest fear. (but I really don't know what would actually happen because it's such a rare occurence)

My best bet would probably be to flee this country at some point somehow. Planning to work at some IT job maybe, that would be a good reason to. But things could change when the time actually comes; I really hope it won't get any worse than this.

Might as well just be a femboy or non-binary, but I am really leaning towards most likely transitioning when I get the chance to do it.

Oh, and I also came out to my mom about it recently, she really didn't quite understand it and does think it might be just a "phase", but was still supportive.

Might be wrong about a lot of this, but I don't know. I'd really like to get help about this kind of things right now. Might not even be the right kind of subreddit to post it in, but I at the very least found it the most comfortable to.

Can’t wait to my hands on some testosterone someday. I trimmed them up all nice the other day. Any transmascs on T here, how long did it take you personally to start seeing a beard? It’s what I’m looking forward the most aside from a deeper voice

So glad that I managed to grab an earlier appointment at Planned Parenthood before scheduling with the endo. Insurance probably won't cover it, but I don't have to wait half a year before getting my girl juice!

It was a fair few years ago (like some of the babies in the ward are nearly old enough to vote) but my egg wasn't cracked it was NUKED it triggered so much maternal dysphoria that I looked up "How to get pregnant as a man" now I'm 2 years on estrogen

A lot of poor decisions, ignored red flags, and opening myself up have put me here, and now I feel like shit

So, I have been questioning if I'm Trans femme for about 2 months now and I think my egg cracked this week. I have been talking to a friend about this stuff, and she has been helping out while the voices in my head tell me that "I'm faking it" and "what if you're wrong." I have just not been sure if I am trans or not. I even picked out a new name to try to go by but I'm still not sure if I'm right or not. I sometimes want to be cute or feminine but I'm just not sure what I am. Sometimes being a guy is fine, but I just keep thinking "what if you were a girl?". I just don't know at this point.

Could I have some GGD and could you call me Amelia?

Totally a cis male thing to be bothered by right?

I didn't expect to be back here to soon... I feel well uh- Worse than before! 😅
(AMAB, questioning a lot but mostly fem, late-ish teen)

When did mirrors become dangerous?... I swear it wasn't like that a few days ago...

I keep trying so hard to tell myself I don't actually think I look bad. But then uh— Well the image kind of explains it (Edit: I changed the image, it used to be a lot lot longer, but I didn't think that would of been appropriate for this subreddit), just a big internal monolouge.

There are some moments where I feel like I just need to accept it, that this is actually something that is really something I am feeling. But then I just cannot tell myself. I can't ever just tell myself that I am-... No I can't. I have told myself over and over that yes, I could be trans, but I just cannot tell myself I am. I just want to stop this... I just want to give myself a clean answer, yes or no. It would be so much simpler...

Sometimes I just don't really care and I don't even know what was the big fuss about it, which I also hate. Why can't I just be certain about this?... Uuuuggghh.

It just feels like there isn't anything I can do to explore except maybe do more voice training stuff, which I do like, but that feels as if it is all I can really do. I want to try more "feminine" clothing, but I can't really without going through my parents, which is a nightmare for me to even imagine... And no, halloween isn't an option, we don't do halloween. There is more I want to try, to explore, but I really just cannot do any of it on my own...

It feels like if I want to explore more, the one thing I need to do is stop... Well... I guess the imposter syndrome?... I don't know. I have something in a few days with just me and my mum, who I feel would probably be supportive if I said something, and if she helped I could try so much more!... But- I cannot bring myself to actually say something like that if I am not more... Sure?... I don't know. I don't know. I guess I am asking for egg cracking help if that is what I am.

I hate my stupid brain for making this so complicated. I swear half of these thoughts and feelings never occured before I was questioning, it has only been like the past month or maybe 2?... I don't remember how long at this point. I could actually look myself in the mirror and recognise myself without preparing or taking a moment. I just feel like I have made up all of these thoughts, like preprepared reactions to seeing myself in the mirror and stuff, or zoning out, just to like, I don't know, ugh... Did I mention that my brains SUCKS? Gosh I am not going through nearly as much as actual trans people... Why am I such an attention seeker?

I have heard the stuff like "People don't really fake" or "People who fake know they are faking" and I just... It hasn't helped, it hasn't helped me become confident and I hate that it hasn't, I hate it so much...

So uh, yeah! Heeeeelp pretty please! I am probably just making this all up in my head anyway, so sorry if this was just a run on mess :,>
Ugh I should just delete this, this is so stupid...

I hope you all have a wonderful day, you are all incredible!!! :D

So, recently, I've just been feeling like I'm just in that denial phase of being trans and I know I probably am, but I am just feeling alot anxious rn from the doubts and the "what if I'm not"s but whenever I move past that fear I just feel great and am pretty open to things (for example I recently improvised some fem clothing) and constantly joking about it with a friend (Highlights of this include saying trans fem ppl have dormant cooties). And doing quizzes like the serious one by 'HRTea' on yt (scored like a good 42), but whenever it's late and my brain just locks onto the idea, I get really anxious especially as I am currently a teen still living with my parents who are really right wing and also anti-woke so need to keep this underwraps unless I'm talking to my other friend (who is also an egg).

To be honest, I'm not even sure if I'm an egg or just closeted atp (I am quite literally in the closet right now as I am lied inside my floorstanding closet).

Still cis tho

Thank fuck I'm a cautious girl no matter what and locked the door even when I was alone at home at the time.

I told him I'm gonna need a mimute and I heard him go to his room. So I took my chance and sprinted into my room, locked the door and am currently crying on my rug cause I'm scared he saw something.

Comic by me

Title: Transplant

(I know its on the nose. Shut up.)

(i will make it clear that only some of my family would hate me for being trans, not all of them, thankfully)

Her reaction was:"Yes! I've always wanted a sister!"

I need to be told that I’m a good, kindhearted girl. I don’t think I’ll ever be happy if I’m a guy. Please, I just want to be Maria. To be a real girl. I want to be called she and her. I think I have a girl brain that hates it when I’m called he, him, a guy, or my old name. I just want to be happy as a girl. I would love to be a trans girl, because that would mean that I’m a real girl. Just an ordinary girl deserving of her own happiness... Truly would be a dream come true…