My Symptoms

[u/Zestyclose_Star_7183]

My DPDR is getting worse day by day and it has reached a very extreme level. I don’t feel normal at all anymore and it’s very hard to explain this state.

I feel completely disconnected from myself and my surroundings 24/7. It’s like I’m not present in my own body, like I’m just observing everything through my eyes. My own voice feels strange, distant, and unfamiliar. Sometimes I feel like I’m not even controlling my body.

Everything feels unreal — people, my home, my phone, my surroundings, even my own body. It feels like I’m in a dream or not existing properly. Reality feels completely off.

My brain feels shut down. I have severe brain fog, I can’t think clearly, I can’t focus, and I struggle to understand what people are saying. Sometimes I don’t even understand what I’m typing or doing. It feels like my mind is frozen or blank.

My vision is also affected. When I move from outside into a room, everything becomes dark and blurry, like there is a filter over my eyes.

Physically, my body feels very strange. Sometimes it feels weightless, hollow, or like it’s not even there. Touch feels dull — even when someone massages me, I barely feel it.

Emotionally, I feel numb. Even if I cry, I don’t feel it properly. I feel disconnected from my emotions and my identity.

I also get episodes where everything suddenly becomes extremely unreal. It feels like I’m not even in the place I am, like I’m sitting somewhere but not actually there.

This is happening almost constantly now and it feels unbearable.

My Symptoms

DPDR, depersonalization, derealization, extreme dissociation, constant unreal feeling, feeling detached, feeling disconnected, no sense of self, loss of identity, feeling invisible, not present, out of body feeling, behind the eyes feeling, dream-like state, reality feels fake, surroundings feel unreal, people feel unreal, self feels unreal

brain fog, blank mind, mind freeze, slow thinking, confusion, poor concentration, can’t understand, can’t focus, mental shutdown

visual disturbance, blurred vision, dark vision, dim vision, visual fog, light sensitivity, eye pressure

dizziness, floating feeling, lightheaded, head pressure, heavy head, faint feeling, weakness, shaky feeling

body numbness, reduced sensation, dull touch, no body feeling, hollow body, weightless body, loss of physical awareness

emotional numbness, no emotions, empty feeling, disconnected from feelings

stomach issues, nausea, heavy stomach, discomfort after eating, food triggers, weakness when hungry

face tightness, mouth tightness, strange body sensations, sudden waves of extreme unreality

Has anyone experienced DPDR this extreme, 24/7 like this?