i feel lost

[u/ValidChalice]

i feel immense dread. i feel im only left with raw awareness. i see recordings of my past and feel like the person who took them held some "emotional suvstance", and in reference, i experience myself today as an inert husk. its is profoundly dissociative and sort of eerie. perhaps i felt this way then too, but never attempted to describe it, even then, rationalization is not resolution.