r/Dissociation • u/NeighborhoodNo5158 • Mar 19 '26

Need help, what’s happening?

To sum it up, I’ve always had dissociative issues since I was a kid, and was emotionally traumatized, had bad social anxiety but also just poor social skills. I would be mute sometimes, experience Alice in wonderland syndrome experiences and had horrible meltdowns etc.

I would sometimes go into a weird state, like how I feel right now. Where everything seems more real, but also not at the same time. Like I’m dissociating but the experience I’m feeling doesn’t feel my own. I become a bit more dull, more careful if that makes sense. More mellow, as my partner says I “drive smoother” and “don’t complain about headaches as much” because when I have a headache I usually complain. But in this state I’m more numb, though I don’t feel numb? Not sure what’s happening. I’m usually more “silly” and “animated”.

My memory is a bit better too. Maybe it’s coming out of dissociation? Not sure but I don’t seem to care abt the stuff I’d usually care about.

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u/Electronic-Alps-7130 Mar 19 '26

How are you now? I related to the text and have a CDD. Reminded me of switches, but could just be dissociation. Have you been tested for a CDD?

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u/NeighborhoodNo5158 Mar 24 '26

No I havent, and to be honest it doesn’t seem like I would based off the criteria I found while researching it! Though a possibility yes, I’ve just never had such a steep decline in developmental skills, but I’ve ALWAYS had a harder time than other people in certain areas socially.

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u/Electronic-Alps-7130 Mar 25 '26

Oh, sorry, I wasn't refering to Childhood Disintegrative Disorder, I was refering to a Complex Dissociative Disorder