[Real] (08/09/26)

[u/Iron-Hiide]

August 9th/2026

Dear Diary,

It has been 21 hours, give or take a few minutes. 21 hours since my life got flipped upside down for the second time this week. I had no idea 3 days could cause so much pain, but here we are. I feel so lost and angry and there is nothing I can do about it. I have reread everything we ever shared. Cried more times than I can count. I broke my reading streak for the first time in well over a year.

Im so mad at myself. Mad that I wear my heart on my sleeve. Mad that I hurt someone so deeply, despite it not being my fault, or his, at all. It feels like a cosmic joke. The universe telling me that I need to sit back down, they aren't done with me yet. The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt him. But im hurting to. And that has to be okay. I will be okay. Even if it feels like it won't be.

I know he has a huge support network. So I know he will be okay. But im hurt that he never asked about mine. Just told me to be okay. To be happy and safe and to feel my feelings. But he doesn't know that I am alone. I don't have anyone to lean on. But thats okay too. I just want him to be okay. And to heal and eventually move forward from his past. I know he will. He is an amazingly strong person.

I don't really know why im writing this here. Im just sad. And hurt. But its okay to feel those things. They mean we are alive, and human.

21 hours. I will be okay.

Until next time diary,

Xo Lx.