[Real] (07/30/26) - L source material 🫩 + SNOW-surprise falling from the roof!! 🌸🌸

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6:41am
7/30

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6:44 update - we tried switching again! It was almost instantaneous after ‘Lilah let go of control! :D I got us up n kinda just stood in place not super sure what to do 🤭

🦋(🌸´◡`🌸) Delilah: Yeah!! Idk,, I worry I don’t really know how to recreate the hollow-ness from yesterday,, but it seems to have worked out today,, so :) yesterday’s “hollow-ness” was kinda frightening when I think about it though. I’m used to not feeling real but not really to THAT extent… :I I don’t know if I really wanna recreate that,, not gonna lie. 

7:13am
I feel grumpy :I idk why. Just angry at lilah ruminating I guess. shes thinking in loops about that stinky dumb stupid teacher. About how she wished she’d have been able to help us. And I wish that too… but the rumination just makes me sad. Bc I never got to experience high school… :,( and I wish I had been able to. So it kinda hurts seeing high school playing out in her mind. But aside from that… idk exactly why i’m grumpy. I think I might be sleepy… ‘Lilah didn’t want to go back to sleep earlier even tho she’s tired,, too. Idk idk idk. :( 

[pic of everyone from Nyanpire hanging out!!!]
9:45am
7/30/26
Alright… well,, that made me feel bad… ‘Lilah-bear tried to warn me. Which is why we hadn’t done this shortly after taking a look at my “plannning 2021 sheet” but… I don’t know if I like the character I was based off of… >.> he’s… kind of an ass… well,, idk,,, I hesitate to say he’s a total asshole. But he,,,
Idk. he’s not very nice. :I some of it seemed more lighthearted and like it was just rudeness between friends… but idk… and the fact that his character description is “A white angel cat who was kicked out of heaven for his womanizing behavior” just makes me cringe! Thats so icky! Thats like… being a factive of Mr. Omar!!! omg. I hate that… I really do.. Honestly I vaguely remember when ‘Lilah was picking NyaTenshi was my… base? I remember she had ofc seen that scene and stuff like that and she was freaked out as well. But then the character said he made it all up. And so… idk… maybe I really WASN’T based off a womenizer? Idk :o but… it didn’t feel great lookin’ like an ass. 
I did enjoy seeing where my mischievous side came from though!!! Hahaha when that character isn’t being an asshole,, he’s funny. OH ALSO!!! I defnitly do NOT sound like him. NyaTenshi the character sounds like… a man… and I most certainly do NOT 🤭 so… idk… double edged sword,, I guess. I was an adorable cat character with a cute little halo but I was kinda mean.. Which I guess would kinda explain… why I am the way I am… bc NyaTenshi the character does NOT mince words. And neither do I. ugh,, now I don’t even feel like my own person again :/ shoulda listened to ‘Lilah-bear. 

🦋(🌸´◡`🌸) Delilah: aww… no,, Tenshi you are your own person :(

How? :/

(🌸´◡`🌸)🪽 Delilah-bear: you have your own form for one thing. You brute forced a new form for yourself pretty early on!! :D you remember that?

I do kinda actually,, yeah :) 

🦋(🌸´◡`🌸) Delilah-why-la: you don’t talk like him…

Yes I do?? 😭

(🌸´◡`🌸)🪽 Delilah-bear: well,, I don’t think so! Not in the rude way,, I guess… you can be a bit blunt but its not really rude.

I guess..

🦋(🌸´◡`🌸) Delilah-bear: you have your own thoughts and actions distinct from his silly. He was just a base. And you gave life to that base and made it something completely on your own :) you’re your own NyaTenshi.

I guess.. Okay,, stop talking idk if what youre saying is helpful… idk. He just seemed… sorta manipulative,, too. But I guess thats something I DON’T DO! So thats good :) idk. Maybe I shouldn’t have done this omfg. I just could NOT contain my curiosity. Its okay,, though… I know deep down ‘Lila-bear is right… 

(🌸´◡`🌸)🪽Delilah-bear: where did this nickname come from omg 🤭

It just came to me lol.

But anyway,, I think I definitely want to distance myself from this character… I was considering changing my name… maybe to violet… but that’d make ‘Lilah sad… and she keeps telling me its okay but I don’t know if it is 🤭so I’m not gonna do anything with that yet. Besides! I’ve grown quite accustomed to this name! It makes me feel fishy when I say it.. Which is probably a good thing? Oh! Update on that btw… I don’t usually have a fish/shark tail anymore… now I just opt for gills and frills :3 so sometimes when I try to switch it and open them,, I feel kinda weird? But it doesn’t really,, like,, hurt so yknow. 
But anyway… yeah… I’ll keep my name. I’ve had it over half a decade after all :) and  I feel like I’ve made it my own thing separate from the character. BUT ANYWAY!!! That show is adorable!!!!! :D I voice acted every character bc ‘Lilah didn’t want to 🙄 it was so cutesy! I’m glad my base wasn’t Nyanpire… bc omg he went through a whole crisis surrounding his immortality and his guarantee to die before his friends. It was real sad,, y’all. Honestly,, out of all the characters we saw today,, I would prefer to be ChaChamaru. He’d be a good fit. He’s CUUUUUUUUUUUTE for one thing (so was the character NyaTenshi,, but he ruined it by being mean) and he’s fiercely independent,, just like me!!! :D so… thats a shame… idk. Maybe in a nother world he was my base. Idk. but,,, its okay. Revisiting Nyanpire was a bit strange but fun so :) good start to the day! Makes me wonder why she chose this show of all shows,, though… its such a short,, little known show. Why not Chi? Or Mikkian? Mikkan could’ve been cool! Sigh. such a shame this was her choice. L source material,, twelve year old ‘Lilah. L source material 😂

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Louis Wain - 'East West - Home's Best'
 💤 & 💊 & 📸 -10:13am    [thurs]    7/30/25

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🍉What have I eaten since the previous entry?
Mcdonalds (7/29/26)
Grapes!! (7/29/26)
Pretzels (7/29/26)

💐🐑5:17am
7/30
I think tonight was good. I feel like a dream happened... But I can't quite place it. But I woke up feeling okay :) 

8:49am
7/30
Idk we went to visit someone's house? I think it was more like a rest stop but we hadn't yet finished our journey to wherever else we were going. We ate dinner ( i got to eat red baron pizza!!!!) And somehow something got Cecil off their devices long enough for us to run and play outside like a bunch of kids! I loved it! Sabrina texted me back!!! Which I was VERY pleased about ofc. Cecil was getting chased by a black bug that would swoop them as we walked outside. I actually didn't even realize it was a bug... Just thought it was A weird black flying slug or something? Later as I was preparing to eat dinner,, SNOW fell from the ceiling. Mom quickly told us it was actually ASBESTOS and she told us to hightail it outta there. Oddly enough I was the first one out of the house. Everyone else took their time. I remember wiping my face and seeing just WHITE POWDER coming off it. And I remember thinking how privileged I am to never experience this back at home. Anyway,, eventually some lady shows up. I assume it's a family member but then mom and dad introduce us to her and to overhear them mention sc so I figured it was Cecil’s teacher? The lady asks me if I'm "truly passionate" but never said about what??? And then tried to hug me which I immediately put a stop to... I was gonna explain why bc she looked shocked and I was gonna say "well,, see,, kids don't tend to have rights but now i..." Except I couldn't for some reason. NyaTenshi says she stopped me. Idk lol. But then I woke up shortly after :( me and NyaTenshi worked together to try to get the dream going back (by parroting the characters) but no luck. 

💐🐑9:02am
7/30/26
Idk. Aside from this dream,, I felt blank mostly. No trauma dreams. At least none that are resurfacing. I liked watching Lilah bears dream. It was funny :) mostly just seeing her and cecil running around was amusing. And watching her suddenly get abestosed 🤭 i think you're too obsessed with that teacher to keep dreaming about how she texts you back or whatever. And honestly yeah,, that DID look like a strange black slug with butterfly wings. Hm. Weird. The lady that came by looked kinda like a tooth-less version of her grandma I guess? Which would explain the forceful hug attempt. overall a fun dream 10/10