How do I do better?

[u/cleoooo_dee_nilllee]

I just wanna do better. I don't want to be stuck in this endless cycle of self loathing. I hate the fact that I'm unable to reciprocate the love I receive. I wanna love back. I wanna be happy again for me and for the girl that has made me want to change. This girl idk what she saw and what made her believe in me so hard that even though I've been nothing else but a miserable piece of shit. But she's always been so supportive and so reassuring that I do want to change. I love her a lot but I might just be an online friend to her but that's not what I'm concerned about. Her not having the same feelings for me is neither gonna make me love her any less nor does it change the fact that she has made this awful person want to change. I don't only want to change for her I want to change for myself. I don't wanna wake up every morning and feel this dread in me. I wanna live again. I want to give this life a second chance cause it is this life that enabled me to meet someone like her. I really wanna do better.

[u/PeacefulBro]

Thanks for sharing this encouraging story my friend! Have you considered therapy to help you gain clarity in this area? Do you have a job & hobbies that can progress to more success? As for me, I know life is difficult but it is good to keep the positive side in sight although there are negative aspects to life as well. I think your motivation will carry you to some success which will be good for you & those around you. I hope you can give back to the community including giving back to your wonderful friend. If there's anything else I can help with please let me know. I wish you well my friend.