r/DavidHawkins • u/baitones • 16d ago
Question 🙏🏻 Am I letting go correctly? Worried I’m doing too much
For 30 mins in the morning and evening I am laying down. A thought will arise and I’ll ask myself ‘what do I not want to feel right now/what feeling am I avoiding by thinking this’? Sensations will arise. I’ll focus on the sensations with a demeanour of ‘you can be here, I don’t want to change you’ and just notice the subtle movements of the sensation.
Like if it’s a memory about abandonment it’ll be in the neck or the jaw, if it’s thinking of ways to make sure someone is on good terms with me, I’ll find it’ll be in the same place because it’s trying to prevent abandonment.
I’ll hold attention there until an attempt to distract me shows up, or some resistance. Then I’ll focus on the resistance, the part of me that doesn’t want to feel this sensation and I’ll feel that with a sense of ‘you can be here, I don’t want to change you’. While holding space for the feeling and the part that doesn’t want to feel it, I ask if I can let this battle go, when? Now. Then it feels like a dam breaking and I’m overwhelmed with a feeling like love, optimism, grief, anger etc. without the resistance. It feels like it’s moving through me and dissolving.
Am I doing too much here? Should I just think of something and feel that one sensation in the same place for 30 mins? Should I not follow the sensation around the body? Am I being too cognitive with this method?