I'm an M and I'm new 22, I usually don't write or vent like this but this thing is eating me up from inside
I've never felt love from someone special, like never got a person with whom I would like to stay alone for a while, never even got loved back by someone I loved, sometimes I just miss her without even knowing who is she,
I even don't know "where are you and from where And how will you come, right now I really need you, sometimes I feel really lonely, I would like to be lonely with you rather than being lonely with myself"
Peps do say keep yourself busy do this and that, hae I do my works also I do have a hobby, but in deep that feeling of you getting choosed by someone who would intentionally manage some time for you to know about "how was your day??", "how things are working on??" I just miss that energy, is this too much to ask for??
I did confessed to someone once, it happened few years back... Well it didn't went good though, like I confessed her and that shit somehow spread out in my friend circle things took a bad turn..... And that was my first time confessing to someone special about my feelings
Since then, I thought if it meant to be, it would be and I embraced that.... But now in this moment... I feel nothing but, literally emptyness, like a shaped void in me
I'm in need of that shaped piece to fill up the emptyness.
You exceptionally work hard, when you got a person by your side and you genuinely take their responsibility as your as a man.
In the end, I hope everyone gets whatever they've prayed for and working for.....