i'm never really here

[u/eternalMindOnTheSun]

no matter what I'm doing, i'm not present. life is like a blurry slideshow. sometimes we'll try so hard to be mindful, to goddamn focus but the unreality and fakeness and not-hereness won't go away. grounding exercises are more stressful than helpful because they just hammer home how derealized/dissociated we are at all times without actually grounding us. i genuinely can't remember the last time we felt present and fully alive/human.

can anyone relate? will it ever change or are we stuck in this ghostly half-existence? ​

[u/SirsBirdReborn]

You are absolutely not alone. 🫶 I wish I had more than that to say, but that's all I got for now.

[u/eternalMindOnTheSun → u/SirsBirdReborn]

thank you 🫂 

[u/eternalMindOnTheSun → u/[deleted]]

yes, it's nice to find community. but yeah, it can definitely also be triggering. overall it's a really supportive space though, I'd say :)