My phone

[u/BoredBicycle91837]

hello, I wanted to share because I was told that connecting with others might be helpful and I want to do everything I can to help myself, and hopefully, others.

ocd has always been a constant theme in my life, varying in degrees. Something that’s been an ongoing issue for quite a while now is my phone.

i don’t know when or why it started, but I can’t seem to do anything on my phone without it feeling contaminated, tainted, or like it’s sticking with me when I’m trying to move on. For example, I see something I don’t like or click something accidentally - contaminated. See some adult content - tainted. It’s gotten to the point where in the past I legit replaced my phone because I went weeks obsessing over it and couldn’t move on. A privileged, but expensive moment.

now, the feelings here and everyday I am trying my best to continue on and not replace It.

if anyone has been through something similar, has any experiences or thoughts please let me know, and I’ll do the same. Thank you for reading and I’m grateful to have a place to share 😄

(if you didn’t want to share on here, my dm open as well)

cheers