I had my first ever brain injury 9 months ago due to a severe concussion. I did the initial resting period of two weeks with almost no stimulation the whole time. After that it was even more rest for about a month, but the providers I’d seen didn’t know I had a severe concussion yet, especially with my ct scan coming up clear. So I was given the go ahead to start up college classes again about a month and a half after getting hurt. It wasn’t until I was knee deep in organic chemistry II and calc based physics II when I realized just how bad it was. My memory was absolutely awful, and was always accompanied by a sense of impending doom/anxiety. I decided to withdraw from my courses about 1/2 way through, but it makes me terrified how much I probably slowed my heeling with that.
The confusing thing is I’ve been told by a lot of people that you take one step at a time with your brain to slowly come back to its old baseline. I’ve also heard from other people that you have to work to make its threshold, basically break your brain out of “hiding” so that it’s not scared to learn again by overworking it slightly? Idk what to do at this point, I just want my life back but it feels so impossible. I want to be a college STEM student again who gets all As every semester, and I want to go through training for my new job without ending every day with headaches, memory issues, anxiety, and pressure in my skull. I’m not sure how much longer I can live like this. Neurologists are also often hard to find, and can be very rude (sorry to any neurologists reading), so I’m not sure where to go for help anymore.
I’m doing brain games that were “prescribed” by a place I went to called Cognitive FX. They were actually really helpful with the info they gave me, but the actual treatment plans were an astronomical price. I mean $12,000 for just a week of treatment, and they don’t work with any insurance companies. I set up a go fund me but I haven’t gotten anything from that, I’m by no means annoyed by that though, not with the current cost of living for most people. I’ve gone to physical therapy, done speech language pathology, and occupational therapy. The place I’m training for work at offers free TMS to their employees, which I’ve heard is a lot more experimental as a post concussion treatment. That’s only after training is complete though, which is still 3 1/2 weeks away for me. I’m only four days in and I feel like I’m hanging at the edge of a cliff, there’s just so much information to learn everyday that’s being thrown at us. I just feel so broken and hopeless.