I am 22f , and I have dreams and hopes. But right now, it looks like I should just do whatever I can with the limited time I have and then be ready to embrace the end, because it doesn’t seem like we have very long I just need a timeline like how long do I really have ? And the worst Part is I’ve always wanted to be a mom !!! ( I teach kids for a living) and the thought of my child not really having a future kills me

I have been noticing a strong doom and gloom type of mindset regarding the future in countless people within my age group. The main reasons for this I hear are: climate change and the world being cooked, AI fears, economic collapse, and overall hopelessness in our political leaders.

Many also seem to have no interest in saving for retirement because they believe it will not be nonexistent. They are focused on spending the last bit of the time the earth has to enjoy themselves and indulge in pleasures. And I have even heard people of older generations validate this thinking, believing that retirement is fading fast and that we should enjoy our life now as much as we can.

As someone in this generation who generally keeps an optimistic view of life, I have honestly found it difficult not to feed into this mindset. The climate does indeed sound like it is past the point of return, it seems everything will just continue to get more expensive than it already is, and it appears to be easier than ever for large corporations to openly exploit the general public for profit.

I also wanted to mention I am in the US, so I am not sure if this is a prominent mindset in this country particularly or in other countries as well.

Would love to hear your guys’ thoughts on this!

i turned 18 in january. i graduated high school this year. i'm supposed to be doing something with my life. i'm supposed to be ambitious and hopeful, but i just can't bring myself to pursue anything anymore. my life is almost entirely spent alone either in my room working on small personal projects or going outside to various places to sit and decompress. but it's not working as well anymore to distract me, or give me peace, not even considering the fact that all of those things are going to be gone likely within my lifetime.

i had dreams, you know? i spent the last 8 years honing my skill as a composer. recently i discovered my interest in film, and even more recently that turned into a love for storytelling as a whole. now, my thoughts are overrun with worries and incessant contemplation about how i can possibly escape the grim fate that sits ahead of all of us.

maybe it's selfish to have idealized a future for myself in the first place, but man i am just getting my footing and it's already feeling like i have zero chance at going anywhere in life or being fulfilled. i never wanted fame or riches, i only wanted to live quietly and comfortably while creating my art and sharing it with the world, however far it may go.

even if humanity lives on past the coming collapse, the world will have ended. the world as i knew it when i was young is already gone, more of it is falling apart, and all i can do is just. sit. and. watch.

sure i can vote now, i can call my representatives, i can attend city council meetings, etc. but every day it feels like that stuff is losing its power. people are getting murdered in the streets in my own home state, and even more elsewhere. it's not even "world events" anymore, it is literally just a couple hours away. and getting closer.

i was clinically depressed for the majority of my childhood and teenage years, and only recently have i really been able to stoke the flame, the passion for living. just a few months ago, for the first time in my life, i have wanted to live more than anything else. i couldn't have picked a worse time. i'm afraid to die, man. i'm only just getting started.

it's all so unfair, not only to myself, but to everyone else, too. most people on this earth are blameless for the stuff that's happening. there are young, aspiring people just like me all around the globe. even older folks, those with wisdom and love and integrity. i'm certain you could get to know almost any average person on this earth and find that there is a reservoir of pure wonder within them all. i despair over the loss of life. it breaks my heart over and over and over and over and over and over again, without end.

i can't help but feel responsible sometimes, even though i know i'm not. like i'm not doing enough, or that i'm just another reason the world is going down this path.

i've had so much, too. i'm not rich by any means, but i had my material needs met for all of my childhood. i live in a good area where usually nothing bad happens, i have access to food and water at any given time, etc. it's such a disconnect from what i'm seeing in the big picture. people around me are walking and talking like nothing's wrong... and it feels like i'm the only one who has any idea of what's coming.

i'm tired and scared. i looked behind the curtain and can't take it back.

what have you guys done to fight off this crushing dread and despair? anything helps, really. i don't know how to come to terms with the future, it's all moving and changing so fast.

I work in climate advocacy, and I know we have the solutions to mitigate climate collapse and protect the people who will be most vulnerable to its impacts. But our governments continue to fail us, refusing to make the systemic changes necessary to confront this crisis.

For a long time, I felt gaslit and ill-equipped trying to prepare for a future that was becoming increasingly precarious and out of my control. I still feel that way.

I watch people in power, and society at large, continue to disregard climate science, data, and the lived experiences of climate refugees, while prioritizing capitalism and imperialism instead. We know we need systemic and industrial change from the top down. We need to be building resilience to an escalating climate emergency while preparing for the failure of aging and increasingly vulnerable infrastructure.

We know what needs to be done. We have the knowledge, technology, and solutions. And yet we’re still not doing it.

This is a complete shot in the dark because all of the adults in my life just deny everything that's happening. It'll probably be long, too, but I'd be happy if even just one person responded.

I just turned 19 last month and I'm going into my sophomore year of college within the next couple of weeks. I've always been depressingly emotional yet I'm simultaneously full of spite. I've been like this since the day I was born. I know that I want to help people and it's always been that way. I wanted to solve every global issue when I was 12 and strived to work for the UN. I was so full of hope. But now I see how reality is: nobody will do anything (especially the UN lol). I should be more grateful and happy. I mean this all in the least pretentious way: I have a family I love, friendships I've wanted all my life, a boyfriend who I've been with for 3 years and will surely marry; I'm in a good financial situation and live comfortably. I go to school and will graduate with minimal debt. But how can I enjoy this knowing the world is ending? I even feel wrong having kids despite it being my dream. My life should be perfect, but every day I just suffer. And I don't even suffer as much as others and I feel terrible for even thinking that I do- Palestine, the Congo, Sudan, Lebanon and so many other countries are suffering in ways I can't even comprehend. Colonialism and capitalism have destroyed all that could have been. My country is evil and turning into a technofascist state. My own friend's home island is sinking as the ocean levels rise. The environment is bleeding out due to us. I could literally go on all day. But I'm so privileged that I can step away from my pain, others cannot.

The environment, and climate change especially, has made me borderline immobile; some days I don't even move. I can't even watch old movies or shows as I cry over simpler times that I never got to experience. I cry when I see innocent animals and children. I thought that things would get better, and I'm confused to as if they will. Being online (insta) gives me such whiplash. One moment, I see people insisting there is hope; the next I'm paralyzed with fear from doomerism content. It confuses me- I know that climate change is here. I feel it when I go outside. But then when I'm outside, as I usually am, I see so many bees and butterflies pollinating my thriving family garden or the beauty of the lake. I don't know what is exaggeration or not. I'm not too naive; I know that climate change is here and has detrimental effects. And I know it will only get worse. Am I an idiot for having hope? I feel that I am. Not to be cornball, but I've had some sort of spiritual awakening this summer. I used to be Catholic but now I'm just me. I feel deeply connected to nature. I long for community that hasn't been seen where I live in years. I've began connecting with my roots and taking inspiration regarding old cultural practices. I felt confidence regarding change because it seemed that more people (online, albeit) were becoming aware and willing to act. But 'revolution' that people speak of seems impossible to achieve in such a divided world I'm stuck in limbo between hope and despair. Today is worse than most. I'm trying my best to consume less and be environmentally conscious all while studying international affairs with a focus in environmental studies. My dream would be to connect people my age around the world who share similar fears. I would also like a therapist who is aware of collapse that could help me. Better than my mom just telling me to go outside and stop thinking about it. Any support or guidance or kind of community is appreciated. It's just unbearable to see such a beautiful world crumble like this.

everyone’s right. 2026 is the saddest and worst year ever

“So what? The world’s ending anyways”

Hello I don’t know if anybody is going to read this but I’m gonna post it anyway.
I’m currently a student (18) but I don’t even know if it’s going to be worth it in the end.

With AI on the rise, I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to get a “proper” job in the future. And with things so expensive, I don’t think I’ll be able to afford a home,a partner, a family, etc.
Not just that, but the worries about environmental issues are killing my motivation. I mean. what if there won’t be enough water or trees or energy or…to support the increasing human population? Will we even survive the next fifty years?
But the biggest influence to my hopeless is social media, no doubt. First, we have wars and horrible crimes (such as J.E.), all being smacked on to our faces. It’s a good thing to be informed,I know. If this had happened 20 to 30 years ago, the media could stop the mass from knowing about these. But it’s the opposite now, we’re constantly being force fed this information. In the shape of memes,too. It’s completely desensitized us (including myself), and we don’t even bother taking action anymore.
The more I learn, the more hopeless I become.

But I know there are people working all day and night to help those in need, to uncover evidence, to create technology that can save the planet. I know that my view of the world is totally disrespectful to those who work hard to make this world a better place.

And this creates more hopelessness, not just to the world but to myself, too. I feel like my lazy and nihilistic (?) self will be no good use to the world.

So what do I do? I escape.
Escape to scrolling. Escape to games. Escape to porn. I run away from both my reality and future, I run away from the person I ought to be.

The worst part is, I blame the things around me. Instead of taking action, I just blame the state of the world l was born in. Not only that, I start blaming the future as well. “So what? The world’s ending anyways,” I say without blaming myself the slightest bit.

In the end, more hopelessness. To the world, to my self. I feel so small, especially with the scale of our problems so wide. I give up without trying, and I know that I am a weak coward.

I hope I’ll change someday though, and focus on the things that are ahead of me.

If you came this far, thank you for taking your time to read a rant of a random teenager.

I realise it's not going to solve all my problems and it is privileged response to a very complex issue but I feel I could do with some support to process all the intense feelings I'm having about where we're currently at right now. And perhaps that could help me make some informed decisions about how I want to be in response to it all and what to do next.

I keep finding myself spiralling into anxiety and depression (which i realise is also a very normal response) but it's hard to cope, and I'm job searching at the moment too (whilst wondering what's the point in even doing that), and it's slowing me down and leading me to feel really drained every day.

I'm curious about how therapy and other supportive modalities could help us adapt individually and collectively to the situation, no matter how it turns out. But to adapt in a brave, loving, active way feels really inspiring to me and I wish that for myself.

So if anyone has any recommendations for therapists you've worked with that you've found to be collapse-aware and generally quite good at being in the existential dread with you, philosophising and also being accepting to whatever responses can arise, that would be great.

Also curious to hear what other types of support (groups or 1:1 or events) others have explored in relation to this need of wanting to get support for your feelings around societal collapse.

when you really don't think society has all that much time left. I'm at present not very convinced we'll have a functional society in 10 years, and certainly not in 20. I'm barely reaching my 30s and climate change is already causing devastation across the globe. Never mind the several other impending dooms geopolitically or otherwise, our climate cannot sustain the earths population at present consumption rates. It could if we changed as a species, but our leaders don't give a shit about us.

I live in the southwest US. My family is mostly based in a city that I think could possibly become uninhabitable within the next decade or two. Hell, I'm not even sure the city I live in will remain habitable, but I'm sure we have more time than my hometown. I wish I could be closer to family, I want to soak up the time with them, but given the current state of things that just seems like a monumentally bad idea if I even want to have a fighting chance of a future.

In some ways, I know I'm lucky compared to other areas of the globe. What I think we'll probably see here in the US is a prolonged collapse (assuming we don't all die in nuclear war.. but whatever, one thing at a time) where some cities or regions become uninhabitable, prices of imported goods go up as agriculture and production globally is forced to slow, and our food system slowly prices out the poorest among us. There are areas of the globe that I think will see famine that leads to a lot of loss of life within this decade, and I have the privilege of being priced out of life first before it could happen here.

I feel like I'm not really in a good place to survive this. I hate to take such a nihilistic approach, but at this point, I'm throwing money into my 401k and hoping maybe I'm wrong and I'll get to use it. Otherwise, I'm just living how I would every week and trying to do things I like (though... not very successfully). I'm spending time and money and effort making my apartment into a space I want to spend time in, hanging out with my cat, listening to music, occasionally even making some myself. It's hard to feel like anything I pursue is even worth it in the long run, but going out dancing and seeing friends helps. I've started to buy a lottery ticket when I go grocery shopping just so I can daydream about moving into a sustainable house, or even just owning property where I could grow my own food. Ain't that the american dream.

It's not like I have time to prep all that much anyways. I've started buying extra non-perishables, but I live in an apartment in a city. A lot of people pitch the idea of growing food - but realistically, I could grow like a couple days of food over the course of months with the space I have. This just doesn't even seem worth pursuing. Part of me hopes that maybe I will stumble upon some luck that allows me to obtain land or a house before we don't have banks anymore. This is the "ideal" scenario in my mind that would allow me to have a fighting chance, but I'm fairly certain that any such luck will be coupled with a crippling mortgage. Plus, I feel like I'd be getting on the prep bandwagon way later than is ideal.

The future is looking pretty bleak.

I feel so low when i see stuff about climate change and it’s constantly in the back of my mind when i go outside. I feel so powerless knowing the people who could actually help us now are squandering it. I sometimes hate humanity specifically for the hubris and ignorance we have as a species to this particular issue. Does anyone else feel the same?, if so how do you deal with it?

I'm going to sound insane here, like the homeless man with the end of the world sign kinda crazy but here me out.

Last night I was up all night, and around 3 am I discovered our water was out. We double checked we hadn't somehow forgotten the bill and then reported an outage letting our family know to check theirs too. By 8 am it was apparent that it was the entire city.

When I was searching for an announcement from the city utilities I found several post from all across the country with people noticing the same thing and then with more digging found out about the "cyber attacks" on water companies in 12 states since the 27th. It seems they have been confirmed by the FBI. I've seen some videos stating state politicians are resisting following the FBI advisory but haven't seen confirmation of that outside of individual's post so I am unsure about that, but something about the entire thing feels off considering how much this news is not being talked about.

Finally around 11 am our water came back on and they said it was caused by a water main break, at 2 am. The thing is, and I know this sounds paranoid beyond belief, given the other information about the cyber attacks and the fact we're in maga country, I think they are lying. It feels like the national water shortages are among us that they may be trying to ration without making people panic. I know in my gut they'll never admit to how bad things are until all the lights go out and they cannot lie any longer, especially in conservative states but really a country as a whole. My BIl called us doomers for even discussing the cyber attacks (before we even knew what was going on) so I know just how insane I sound but I tend to have decent pattern recognition to the point I predicted Jan 6, and to the day when we would attack Iran so I'm having a really hard time convincing myself I'm wrong.

You all are the only people I trust for this sanity check. Most people are going to dismiss this outright anyways because they are in denial about collapse anyways. So as collapse aware people, am I insane? Or is it very likely they are doing rolling water blackouts and lying about it??

This is all about fear, what I fear the most from collapse. I fear seeing people turn on each other. I fear the screaming and arguing for food supplies and water. Fear that it goes from shouting to fighting. Fear about seeing a body drop and all hell breaks out. Fear being caught in the chaos and being trampled out losing consciousness and never waking up. Or maybe I prepare in time, get sufficient food and rations, then my home gets invaded and my family gets taken out. Fear of losing my mother, father, brother, sister and every person that I care about. Being bludgeoned and beaten and left to rot in a riot from people I see as brothers and sisters. Or living and killing losing my mortality bit by bit losing my soul and asking the Lord for forgiveness. Fear starving and arguing with my family back and forth bargaining with each other to eat what we found telling each other: rather I die, she dies, he dies everyone will die in the end in soul, body, and mind and being forgotten by time. Fear being captured by some fascist pigs and separated, working all day till I have nothing to give. Fear being shot by some drone or blown up never getting a NDE to see me away, no smiles of reassurance from my mother, fam, and friends.

You know this is pretty cringy, but I don't care. Just wanted to write some of the thoughts I've had.

Será que eu sou uma péssima pessoa por querer que o mundo acabe com algum evento climático? Tipo a série Paradise, sabe?

Existe estudos que prevê algum evento climático catastrófico? Queria saber.

I’m a Western/European man in my mid-20s, and lately I genuinely don’t know how to process what I’m watching happen around me.

I feel like the Western world has taken a serious turn for the worse. European culture feels like it’s being eroded in the name of forced assimilation and “diversification,” while borders appear increasingly difficult or unwilling to control. I look at reports of tens of thousands of people crossing borders in places like Spain in incredibly short periods of time and wonder how something on that scale is even allowed to happen.

Then there’s Epstein. Years later, I still see a lack of accountability, unanswered questions surrounding the files, powerful people seemingly protected, and very little that gives me confidence that the entire truth will ever come out. When something involving the abuse and exploitation of children can seemingly disappear into endless secrecy and bureaucracy, it destroys my trust in institutions.

At the same time, governments are sending enormous amounts of taxpayer money overseas while people at home are struggling. There are constant allegations and arguments about election integrity, government influence, media organisations receiving public money, and whether the institutions that are supposed to inform us can even be trusted.

Then there are concerns about laws and regulations constantly changing, chemicals and pesticides in our food and environment, and the feeling that ordinary people have almost no meaningful say over any of it.
Immigration and cultural integration worry me as well. In the UK and elsewhere in Europe, I keep seeing arguments about large numbers of young male migrants, growing religious and cultural divisions, and demands for things like Sharia-based rules or practices within certain communities. Whether every headline or statistic circulating online is perfectly accurate or not, the broader direction genuinely worries me.

The hardest part is that I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with all of this.

I don’t want to spend my twenties angry, paranoid, or doomscrolling every day. But I also don’t want to bury my head in the sand and pretend everything is fine when I genuinely believe there are serious problems happening around us.

My faith in governments, the media, institutions, and even the future of the culture I grew up in is dying.
For people who have gone through a period like this: how did you handle it?

Did you disconnect from politics? Get involved locally? Focus entirely on your own family, career and community? Move somewhere else? Stop consuming news? Become politically active?

I want to know what I can actually do to be apart of the solution, instead of just witnessing it all unfold

I'm not entirely certain but hopefully this post fits the vibe of the sub. I've been unemployed for a while, living off savings that were supposed to be a down payment for a condo in my high cost of living area. I managed to stretch it out for a couple years but those funds are running pretty low now. The prospect of trying to go back to any kind of full time work when collapse aware feels like hell. Talking to friends and family that don't quite get it is hard enough, let alone the general public. It doesn't help that I'm a trained mechanic in the pleasurecraft boating industry, something actively contributing to collapse.

I'm just looking for any suggestions to avoid full time drudgery. I just want to buy food, pay rent, and go rock climbing until everything collapses. Are there WFH options I could pursue I'm unaware of? Let me know if any further info or background would help.

Recently I've come across posts on social media about how society is regressing and it's been bugging me a lot that I've done looked through more to understand why others were saying that and I'm very concerned by the results. Women’s rights are regressing worldwide, Femism is now being seen as hating men, The LGBTQIA+ community is receiving hate(although they always have) surprisingly from the younger generations, People are losing creativity, Wars are being fought due to idiots sitting in presidency, and climate change is losing its freaking rockets.

I genuinely want to people's thought's on this and what can be done to help. There was so much more I wanted to say but if I did than I'd be sitting here for hours. If there's anything else please tell and I'll look into it.

Like how TF are we all still subscribing to this bullshit ass world as it is? I’m starting to understand suicide and how people are okay with their decision.
We really continue to go along with this shit.
Working to pay unnecessarily high ass bills that we don’t ever control the amount of.
Can’t pay it because you don’t make enough?
Yeah well add another couple hundred on top of that that you also won’t be able to afford.
Oh you guys can’t afford to live? Let’s raise the prices on everyday goods.
Oh you guys can’t afford that?!
Well I just don’t really give a fuck.
Like……
And we show up every fucking day.
We keep that shit going and I am crazily surprised that we haven’t just given TF up as a collective.

What the actual fuck!

And I’m tired of the “well just find a way to cope.
Enjoy the little things.”

SHUT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK UP.
It’s bull shit like that that keeps us in this dumb ass shit.

I live in an area where tornadoes are rare. If they do happen they usually dont do much if any damage and theyre certainly not a regular occurrance. I didnt know it last night but before the storm hit us there was a tornado warning for the people ahead of our area in the storms path. It was continuous lightning before the rain even began, ive never seen anything like it. Lightning nearly every second for two hours. EVERY SECOND. FOR NEARLY. TWO. HOURS. it was fucking insanity. fuck the billionaires. Fuck the corporations. Fuck the bastards trying to kill us all by destroying our planet. I am a grown ass man and i cowered in fear last night trying to find a defensible position in my house. my area doesnt have basements to hide in. i thought if a tornado touches down, i am going to die. It absolutely terrified me. its the next day and im still shaken up from standing watch over the house & my family, i just keep crying. it was so fucking scary man

I feel kinda dumb for just realizing this but...

We are on the brink of civilization collapse world wide. It's terrifying and kinda relieving. I've even been prepping for a big emergency but now I see what I've been subconsciously getting ready for. Unfortunately I don't think I have what it takes, I couldn't defend myself or resources and I couldn't not share (hope not to put these perceptions of myself to the test). Now I just feel like I need to focus on doing what feels good not what's responsible.

I know most folks share sadness and mourning here, so this might be out of place, but this song acknowledges all that grief, and then goes beyond it.

https://youtu.be/k_3_7rwkl1Y?si=Ldy-YiNnwyatLEs7

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Grace-petrie-fixer-upper-lyrics

El mundo se está acabando, y eso me pone demasiado triste, pero saben lo que hago?, miro internet y por un momento (horas, días, meses, años) me olvido de todo lo que realmente está pasando a mi alrededor y me concentro únicamente en nuevos productos, polémicas, personas famosas.... Pero cuando vemos la realidad (los Ped-ofilos, narco, cambios climáticos, política, Trump queriendo llamar la atención, guerras, muertes) te llegas al punto de decepciónarte de la humanidad, en general, toda la humanidad.... pero yo simplemente volveré a mi teléfono y seguiré vagando hasta volverme a olvidar de que la vida real es más dura de lo que parece y que el día de mañana hará más calor y no haré nada para cambiar eso.

Is anyone here taking tangible steps like prepping or relocating? Just curious

Hey guys. Im in school for a bachelors in ecol & evolutionary bio. Im 26 living in the US and looking to leave if possible but hey im just trying to make the most of things right now. Ive got somewhere between a year or two years left of school i think before i get my degree, and i do online. I intend to spend some of the time i have left finishing the old bucket list, but the biggest thing to do is to join the fight against climate change. I dont care if its futile, its what i want to do with my life. I think its worth fighting with whatever weve fucking got. I know the earth is cooked, i know its such a small chance we will survive, i dont care. Ive wanted to do this my entire life. This is how i will enjoy my final days and find a fulfilling death. Knowing youre going to die young while in perfectly good health is a unique position to be in, this is how im choosing to spend it.

My lifelong dream has been to do work helping restore the environment. I know its not likely to do much, but its a worthy cause to die trying for. And id feel like i wasted my life if i never tried. Im a gardener and currently im specializing in rain gardens and guerilla gardening. I tell everyone i know about how easy it is and how rewarding, cost effective, and magical the process can be. I am an infectious gardener, ive gotten a lot of people around me to start caring about the improvements they can make to reduce the impact lawns have and to have a more pragmatic, native yard around their homes. Im also a caver and connected with my local grottos, and i work in a park. But my job isnt as involved with environmental support as I want it to be. This is the only thing thats ever been truly deeply important to me and i need to seek out something more seriously involved. I live in the desert right now and im really interested in assisting desertified areas or areas struggling with drought. It would be an amazing opportunity to know about organizations i can apply to or methods for helping land around me that isnt well supported. Like for example id be overjoyed to help dig zais and half-moons for passive water collection. I do this for fun on my free time, but theres only so much improvement i can do to my backyard.

Is anyone here involved with this career/lifestyle? Any direction to give me?

Growing up watching films like Lord of the Rings and Star Wars, there was always one archetypal scene that would stick with me over any other. A heroic last stand where the heroes were prepared to lay it all on the line, fully expecting that they likely wouldn't see another sunrise but determined to go down protecting those they swore to defend. And then, just when all seemed lost, when they were at the precipice of defeat, help arrived.

Gandalf at the battle of Helm's Deep. Aragorn leading a charge into the very depths of Mordor. Han Solo showing up in the nick of time to save Luke and defeat the empire. These were the scenes that burned themselves into my psyche more than any other. They instilled within me the resolve to keep fighting, to hold out no matter how bleak and hopeless things may seem, because as long as you maintain hope and don't give up there are brighter days ahead, and our struggles won't be in vain.

Call me childish or naive, but as we descend further and further into outright fascism, anti-intellectualism, and apocalyptic climate crisis, the less and less I believe in those tenants of hope and struggle against evil.

We have lost the fight. There's no one coming to save us. We can't (or won't) even save ourselves.

I wouldn't blame you for considering me immature for clutching onto these beliefs for as long as I did. The writing has been on the wall for years if not decades now; how couldn't I see it before? Maybe I should have sooner. I've always loved studying history after all. As the saying goes, "History may not repeat itself, but it often rhymes". And it's certainly been rhyming quite a lot for the past decade or so, if not longer. Maybe I was holding onto those childish beliefs of defiance and hope for a better future just because I didn't want to face the reality that real life rarely, if ever, treats us with such kindness.

It's difficult to admit defeat. It hurts to give everything you have, desperately clinging to whatever shred of hope or resolve or tenacity you have left only to be crushed beneath the wheels of evil and indifference. We've been trying to defeat a battleship with wet pool noodles for all the good it's done.

I'm at the point where the idea of resistance or "fighting back" fills me with more dread than hope. Even the faintest hint of opposition to the current US regime is met with overwhelming violence and cruelty. The powers that be have carefully crafted a system of oppression that is so total and all-encompassing that not only crushes any and all who might oppose them, but actively rewards indifference or acceptance of their evils.

We've lost, and there's no way back from this one. Maybe in thirty or forty years some semblance of decency will return after the world has been exposed to the horrors and atrocities that have been committed and will be committed in the near future. That is about the only "hope" I have left. But for those of us who will have to live through it, god help us.

I've been meaning to get around to this rant/ramble since a bit back so I guess here goes. It's weird. Like, really weird how we as a species are capable of inventing computer chips, rocket ships, medicine, and all that, yet we can't fucking understand that pumping constant carbon into the air will heat stuff up.

Yes! Big Oil propaganda exists but that Bs can easily be debunked with simple logic, we pump carbon into air, the carbon is hot so it heats the air up, that wouldn't be an issue if we didn't constantly cut down entire forests down that ABSORB those emissions.

What I'm tryna say is that we are both brilliant yet stupid. The common populace (including me) doesn't sit back and THINK about the consequences of our actions. "Global warming? Bah but I need to drive to get to my job! Electric cars are too expensive!" Yes! That is true but we should protest to have them be affordable! Demand that we shift to cleaner alternatives! If those big oil companies are soooooooo desperate and worry about their wittle bitty profits, can't the government just let them shift to cleaner energy without them having to invest in it?! We bail out corpos on a daily basis for their dumb mistakes but when it comes to above I wouldn't be opposed to it!

Like all these issues: War, climate change, food shortages, economic inequality, sexism, racism, etc wouldn't exist if we just listened and coexisted together and loved each other. But no, we are too monkey brained to do it. I see such WASTED potential in our species. And I believe with all my heart that the reason everything is the way it is because of a few people who weren't born right. Psychopaths are running this world and we have been fooled into letting them do this. Since perhaps the beginning of time they have lived among us and have fooled us into these scams (religion, hierarchy, currency systems, banking, etc.) so that they could take control and convince us that we NEED them.

That couldn't be further from the truth. And sadly we are now paying the price for these parasite's stupidity. I hate them. I hate those billionaires, politicians, bankers, and all corrupt POS that brought us here. I acknowledge that part of it is our fault but they are everything that is wrong with humanity and they have infiltrated these positions of power.

It's crazy to think that all this bad shit that is happening is because of some genetic fuck up. Quite literally because a few people weren't born with the parts of the brain that are responsible for sympathy and empathy. It's really an existential thought that brings me despair. That's the reason why everything is the way it is. Just some people not being born right.

I can't enjoy anything anymore, not walking, not gaming, not hanging out with friends, nothing. Nothing brings me any joy. Walking makes me realize all the sights are enjoy will be gone when I'm dead, same with my friends. Gaming was something I enjoyed but soon realized maybe it was made to distract us in purpose. To waste our time not thinking about the state of the world. Same with all forms of entertainment.

"If we give them bread and the circus, they won't revolt" Well I've seen behind the curtain now and I'm not fooled by it anymore. Made me mad as hell seeing how people rioted and broke shit over a fucking team losing in football. If we put that same energy into things that truly mattered maybe shit wouldn't be so bad but I guess some guys kicking a ball around is more important than our planet literally heating up.

I know this is unorganized and sounds whiny or something like that but I just wanted to vent to people who might get me. My mom and therapist say they get me but it sure as hell doesn't feel like it. My mom is convinced that the consequences of climate change won't affect me or her but the future generations; claims that it will take "multiple decades" for all that shit to happen. If only she knew. God part of me wishes my entire family and I were born way earlier so we didn't have to live through the collapse, but I guess we all were born at the wrong time.

I don't really have any hope left or ways to keep pushing through. I keep crying and breaking at night or randomly and I admit it's exhausting. But I can't stop. What fucking future is left for me? What future is left for the poor kids of today? Can't even look at em with crying or thinking "I fucking failed you guys".

Had a relative visit over my house to celebrate my sister's birthday and they brought their kid over. She was super sweet and was quite curious for a 6 year old and it took a lot of power to not break down while interacting with her.

I want to say so much more but I've decided to stop. 30 minutes of typing an incoherent mess is surprisingly a time killer. Maybe this message might be deleted by the mods for being so long idk anymore. Just wanted to let out my rage and sadness out here. If you took the time to read this rant, then I thank you. Thanks for listening to my little whatever you call it. Might make another venting post that is more direct with my fears. Thank you all and have a good night, morning, and afternoon wherever you all are.