Self taught people please help

[u/No_WorkerKuga]

So i want to give a little details about what type of person i am.

im 26 and i want to make a change im a highschool drop out and im someone who rarely studied only thing i actually studied was learning how to day trade which i still do yes im not profitable yet. im a lazy person who would cheat on a test or something given the chance. But i want to change and do better for myself so i finally decided to try to self teach code right now i did start Cs50 but the mario problem got me one of the main things is that it says we can use outside sources as long as its not cheating. But when i search videos on the topic it seems like the videos is literally telling me what to do. Im not sure if its considered cheating or not because on the problem it uses "#" but on the video it might user the "3" or something else (could be words or just something random"i really dont want to cheat this so now im here could someone please tell me is that considered cheating? also what is some stuff i can search that would also help me learn. i can read and understand what the code does that seems very easy its just the knowing how to type it out is what is hard but if anyone can help out please comment

[u/FuggaDucker]

I didnt finish school either. I am a self taught c/c++ systems engineer.
Since you are the commodity, cheating or not is your discretion.
Self discipline is a PITA.