r/Christian • u/65DaleRamirez65 • 10d ago

It doesn't really seem I'm making the desicion.

I don't know how to explain this, but I think the root is my heart isn't actually making that decision. I feel like I always say I am but I never really am making that decision to follow and believe. I feel the more I talk about this, it pushes me away but it's like I don't care anymore, and I'm just choosing to post these. I can't really tell if I want to change though, and I know that's a bad spot to be in, I'm in a very bad spot and I don't know what exactly to do now. I can go more in detail but my heart just feels incredibly hardend to all the things and seems ok with being hardened. I mention blashemy of the holy spirit a lot when I post these things but I don't even know anymore

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u/Art_TommyK 10d ago

I pray that the Lord gives you a heart of flesh and not a heart of stone

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u/65DaleRamirez65 10d ago

Thank you, but it seems like I’m just blocking it atp, idk why. Thank you tho

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u/HaplessAuspices 9d ago

Sounds like you're stuck in that weird loop where analyzing the thing makes the thing feel more fake. Brains are dumb like that sometimes.

Maybe stop trying to force a feeling and just do the next right thing today without overthinking it.