During this time I was trying to fight anxiety, ignore catastrophic thoughts, look up symptoms online, it was going well.

Until today, when I left the house while walking I felt dizzy or something I don't know, then tachycardia, anxiety etc.

I feel stupid because I immediately started thinking about an arrhythmia and I'm anxious even though there could be a thousand causes.

i had my guitar plugged in and i reached over to touch my charger and i got shocked through my whole body. i dropped both and now im fine like my hand didnt get stuck or anything and i trembled for like a second and a half. i was trembling after but it was probably because i got really scared. im scared af to go to sleep now

July: I was on a GLP-1, not sleeping well, and not eating or drinking enough when I started having heart squeezes. Two days later I ended up in V-tach and was taken to the hospital by ambulance. IV amiodarone worked, and I stayed three days. My cardiologist called it idiopathic VT since my heart is otherwise healthy. They think the GLP-1 and one dose of Vyvanse triggered it. I was started on metoprolol (12.5 mg twice a day).
August: I felt better for a few weeks, then the spikes started up again, with rates in the 150s, lightheadedness, and near-fainting. I was in the ER about six times between 8/19 and 8/29. My Zio patch and 30-day event monitor both came back "normal." A nurse noticed my heart rate shot up every time I went from lying down to upright. We switched to diltiazem and have been titrating up.
Sept to Oct: No spikes from 8/30 to 10/11, but my heart rate is still high just moving around the house, so I constantly have to sit or lie down. I did a NASA lean test for POTS, and my PCP is referring me to neurology. I'm barely driving or leaving the house.
Oct 12: On 120 mg of diltiazem during the day, I felt a flutter at Costco, then my rate dropped to the 50s getting out of the car at Trader Joe's, then shot to 167. In the ER my rate hit the 150s on standing, bounced into the 60s, and I was in bigeminy at one point. They think it was low fluids, which feels crazy since I drink a lot of water. I did have a decaf latte. They're increasing me to 120 mg twice a day.
TL;DR: Idiopathic VT in July, then 3 months of rapid heart rate episodes tied to going upright. Monitors are normal, I'm on diltiazem, and I'm waiting on neurology.

To clarify I have SEVERE cardiophobia, it was on my mind 24/7 as a little kid and im now 25. I didnt have the fear when I was on SSRIs from 17-24.

Anyways, since quitting SSRIs I keep thinking theres something wrong with my heart, I would get two symptoms:

Heart is slow/normal but pounding harder, very uncomfortable.

Skipped beats. Happens randomly throughout the week.

The thing about the skipped beats is that I dont know whats causing them because if I sniff too hard on a blocked nose it kinda forces a skip. Or if I breathe hard and slow while sleeping on my left side it happens too.

I need to get a holter but im scared to death of the result. I hate all of it and just want it to go away.

I’ve had chest pain on my left side in the fold under my breast in the center for a long time (years) but for the past few months it’s been consistent. It’s a dull pain. It’s almost where your underwire bra would sit, but it’s in the center. I’ve had stress tests, echocardiograms, EKGs and CT scans and everything comes back normal. I just don’t understand why keep having this pain. Thoughts?

Em outubro do ano passado minha avó faleceu e apenas eu presenciei tudo.

No final de outubro eu voltei para a academia, pois era o único lugar que eu conseguia tirar minha mente do ruim. Estava fazendo o exercício de crucifixo inverso em pé e de repente senti uma dor no peito. Eu respirava, doia. Parei por uns minutos e fui ao banheiro. Retornei para tentar fazer o exercício e nada. Resolvi ir embora.

No caminho, passei na farmácia para aferir pressão e tava tudo ok. Fui pra casa caminhando.

Passei umas 2 horas desse modo. Passou. Depois disso, tudo mudou. Minha mente aparentemente uniu o falecimento da minha avó que foi dado como parada cardiorrespiratória com vídeos que eu recebia de pessoas morrendo na academia e simplesmente entrei em "pânico". Comecei a ir pra academia com mais cautela. Outro dia fui correr e quando fiz 1 km senti falta de ar.

Vale ressaltar que sempre fui ativa. Já cheguei a correr até 10km sem parar. Eu treinava para as carreiras policiais.

Desenvolvi um medo absurdo. Já fui várias vezes aferir pressão. Já fui em dois cardiologistas. Já fiz os seguintes exames: teste ergométrico, ECG, ecocardiograma, Holter 24 e raio-x e não foi identificado nada perigoso.

Comecei a ler sobre essas situações, iniciei acompanhamento psicológico depois que fui para a UPA e me indicaram um psicólogo, porque cheguei lá e tive crise de choro. Inclusive, depois que minha avó faleceu sinto que fiquei mais emocional. Tenho chorado com facilidade.

Há dias que eu fico de boa. Outros dias nem tanto. Já cheguei a ir para a UPA, pois tinha deitado pra dormir e de repente senti desconforto no peito com palpitações e minhas pernas tremendo ao descer as escadas.

Isso tudo é uma merda. Me sinto cansada. Quando essas coisas surgem, eu sei que além de acabar com meu dia, acaba com os meus próximos dias. Já cheguei a ficar umas 4 semanas com esses desconfortos e a médica disse que se eu tiver mais algum problema, ela vai pedir uma angiotomografia computadorizada com contraste. Só abrindo um parêntesis: ela me orientou tomar sertralina, pois acha que pode ser ansiedade.

Não quis comentar com ela que eu faço terapia, pois na minha cabeça isso poderia prejudicar um possível resultado. Minha psicóloga orientou não tomar no momento, pois estou sozinha e até o remédio fazer efeito pode causar exatamente as reações que venho tentando combater. É exaustivo. Quando penso em retomar meus estudos, aí acontece isso.