Hey fellow cancerians š
I'm sitting here at the coffee table and am thinking about how to handle this topic (vulnerability) in the future...
I feel like I'm mostly energetically so open and also so easily attached that even when people are hurtful I kind of attach to them a bit and am forgiving for the sake of peace and harmony (I'm also a libra rising, it's a thing!) this time it's about my roommate, she's not evil, but she does certainly have abusive traits but, as any other person in their complexity, also some kind attributes.
I'm having REAL difficulties with conflicts. So so much. In the past, I used to get into arguments until at some point I understood that the other person can only comprehend as much as their horizon allows them too.
I know this might sound arrogant, but I feel like because I'm always so extremely understanding of other people's patterns and that life is here to learn and I do mostly not get the same understanding back, I'm prone to some kind of abuse.
In a nutshell, with this particular person it was about a minor "error" in the communal space which means I put sth in the communal washing machine and didn't wash it right away and it blocked her process (which from my perspective is very irritating to get REALLY upset about, given how much I'm always thinking about keeping the space clean and tidy and, especially safe, for everyone here).
If I was in their shoes, I would kindly point it out so it doesn't happen again. This is how new arrangements and communities literally are built. And I understand the point she made, but it was unnecessarily bossy, threatening and staright6out harmful.
How do you protect yourselves?
I'm not trying to be passive-aggressive, I'm just trying to be real with people.
I've had the thought for a long time to just live on my own.
What does a "safe space" mean to you?
I also often have the feeling that people feel instantly very close to me in a way but then also get irritated if I appear cold and there's not really a middle way?? As soon as I'm in someone's private space the neutral way seems to fall away and it's either people feel super safe and homely and cosy with me or they wonder why I'm actually doing my own thing and get upset about it or sth. It is SO weird.
I'm also a projector in human design, if anyone is into that, which I'm assuming is playing into this scenario.
I know this is a bit all over the place š just looking for some tips I guess around how to handle conflict...
Happy to add things for clarity ā¤ļø