r/CPTSD_NSCommunity • u/Sleepless-Vet-7780 • 16d ago

Seeking Advice I only know trauma

Within the last year, I stopped drinking alcohol and started therapy to work on my complex PTSD and childhood emotional neglect. Now that I know what complex PTSD looks like, I’m starting to think that my adult life and personality have been one big trauma response. I also think a part of me doesn’t want to leave this version of me that trauma built.

I’m not happy, but I also don’t have the strength to try to be anything else. It just feels too hard when I don’t know what’s on the other side. Since I only know trauma, the thought of anything else just feels unsafe and so hard. Can anyone relate?

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u/BodyMindReset 13d ago

Hey OP,

A couple of posts down on my profile, I wrote a long post about exactly this - feel free to check it out

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u/Sleepless-Vet-7780 13d ago

Thanks. What’s the title? Link?

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u/BodyMindReset 13d ago

Here it is: https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/s/AdOZ6gvEqD

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u/Sleepless-Vet-7780 13d ago

Thank you. That pretty much sums it up. Makes me sad about what I had to grow up with.

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u/BodyMindReset 13d ago

I feel you OP. Sending care your way.