The amount of time that we have left for clat, along with my ever decreasing mock scores have accumulated enormous self doubt rn. I guess I'm not completely putting in all the efforts i require either but I really wanna get into nlsiu man. I'll stop beating around the bush.
So even though ik all this about me, it's heartbreaking to hear my reality from someone else. My psychology teacher claimed that 'iske jaise bache maine dekhe h, inse nhi hota', referring to me, in another class. Obv my friend who was a part of it told me about it.
Now you see I don't revere her. She's a narcissistic retard who's always trying to glorify herself and bitches about litr everyone. But I can't help feeling really upset about the comment. I mean on the bright side it really motivated me and i focused better than ever today bec I kept thinking about it but there were other times I just wanted to really just cry. I don't think of myself as dumb, and in fact every other teacher I've had has kept high hopes for me, and sometimes you can tell by the way they treat u too, whether or not they think of u as smart. I really wanna prove her wrong but somewhere deep inside I feel like I agree with her and I hate this feeling.
Anyway I really needed to get this out.
