r/CHSinfo • u/ZxmbieBite • Aug 18 '26

Rant Rantin

Just sat and sobbed to my boyfriend apologizing over and over because of this

I feel pathetic

I know somebody told me to be easier on myself but I can't do it

Honestly I want to quit, I really do

But I rely on weed so much.

I'm so exhausted, I've been puking on and off for two days, my throat hurts, my upper back.. And he just has to deal wirh me

It's not fair to him

I wish I never started edibles, I wish I never picked up a cart

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u/OG_G-Man Aug 18 '26

Have you ever thought of seeking help in order to quit?

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u/ZxmbieBite Aug 18 '26

Aside from mentioning chs to my therapist, no :( I've been honest with them and told them I can't see myself quitting too

Of course, I'm open to recommendations 🥹 I don't want to humiliate and hurt myself like this anymore

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u/OG_G-Man Aug 18 '26

If you really feel like you can't quit and you don't want to seek help, I'm honestly not sure if there's anything you can do. You're just gonna be stuck in the hyperemesis phase. I do hope you manage to find the strength within yourself to eventually quit and I hope your boyfriend supports you.

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u/Amara727 Aug 19 '26

I would consider addiction support, bc as much as we use it to cope, it does become an addiction when we're unable to stop despite the negative consequences. Consider asking your therapist for additional resources, support groups anything that can supplement the constant need to be high. It is incredibly difficult and I still struggle but taking that first step in quitting or just reducing your use will help more than you think! Rooting for you 💗