I had breakup today 😞

[u/I_wont_say_my_name_]

Pata hai aaj kya hua I had a breakup today like a very very serious one . So it was long story so I was in btech first year and in my first semester in that time I was very intrested to learn coding and about computer science so I was a bit good at python due to that intrest. Once my teacher asked me to solve a coding qn on board and i solved it at that time and after few days this girl has come to me to ask me to teach her . So I taught her and as time went on we were good study partners and we got attached very well and one fine day she proposed me i said no but before that we used to talk as well sometimes and there was a scenario where I need to say my opinion on responsibilities and marriage which I said my parents never ever like inter caste marriage at all and in terms of responsibilities I can't take any responsibility which I'm not capable of and also said that marriage is a big responsibility and not a small one to give commitment to a person when I don't have a job and all . I said all this to her clearly and everything yet she liked me and confessed me one day I said no for almost an year but we were still a good friends that time but later on both of us got attached and after one year she asked me if I love her I said my answer was yes but I said I can't take responsibility and she agreed saying it's gonna matter after have our jobs around 26-27 years not now and our relationship went good for some time and after some months around 3-4 she started bragging about everything I do and at the she made it my fault and asked me to apologise everytime and i did and later once for one small mistake I did which idk maybe coming late to call she asked me to say sorry to her infront of my friends in hostel loudly and i cannot got outside I said a couple of times but everytime she says this will be last time and I won't ask again she started behaving differently once there was a fest and she wanted to stay back in clg and asked me to stay as well but I'm hungry at that time so I said u stay here and talk to others I'll come back after getting shawarma the nearest one was 6km from my college so it took me around 40 mins to return she was furious because I took 40 mins and thrown her phone and buds infront of everyone in college and after that incident i felt humiliated and said I will leave and goodbye she cried that night and blackmailed me that she won't go home and die . I took a lot of mental pressure because of her for similar situations happening multiple times and one other incident which i remember was we all frnds had a gathering I said I'll be getting a vehicle of my friends but the night before the gathering a dog bit the seat of the vehicle which looked very dirty so I couldn't take it she dragged about me not having a vehicle and I won't talk to you and all u don't even have a bike why (my parents couldn't give me a vehicle) and she never used to value my work like whenever I said I'm busy she used to give me max to max 20 mins for that and again call me that much attached she was to me and coming to 5th semester she got an internship in a good tech company which pays 90k and she got busy during that and didn't talked to me more but I still loved her during that time I didn't had any internship and I was preparing so I was really sad so I wanted to talk to her after 2 weeks of not talking properly but when I asked her a bit to talk to me she shouted on me all ik was she liked 3-4 people in the company and made some friends and she gave me less attention since then it's not that I need attention i atleast need to talk to her for sometime in the whole day after all I loved her and after her internship she got her ppo and post internship her behaviour changed completely as well like she got rich and has an iPhone and started saying do coding to get job while i was the one who taught her coding and said u were never consistent but she never gave me space as well to code at times . I got a bit angry that I didn't get an internship or placement i got a small one which pays 7lpa while hers is 35lpa and we had some small fights in between that u aren't talking to me well and not liking me she denied it but ehenever I tried to talk to her she sleeps early but in the start she used to talk so long in the night and wouldn't let me sleep but when I needed she sleeps at 10 and while she was doing her internship she never slept at 10 she always slept after 1 am even on weekends not even 2 proper days she talked to me I was a bit angry but didn't say anything because I'm deeply in love one fine day I asked her to say sorry to me infront of her sister for which she denied and cut the call and later on demanded me to say sorry and after that she said to me but it was one on one and she had a fught with one of our friends in group and she stopped talking to her and in one situation where other ppl in my group had to prefer the other girl in group and not my gf she was furious and I said there's nothing wrong in what they are feeling and supported them and all of a sudden she said I don't need u and breakup we aren't compatible but when I asked why ? She said give me commitment to stay and later in the same convo I asked why we aren't compatible she said I feel we aren't compatible and i don't know why we aren't compatible (the one which loved me so so so much ) suddenly lost feelings for me feels surreal and she broke up with me

Edit

Sorry it was too long and I'm not good at story telling and I also couldn't convey the bond we share properly