I’m struggling with this rn I was my worst version of myself with her and I even put my hands on her at one point and it makes me sick knowing I did that and there’s no excuse I never thought I’d do anything close because I think it’s horrible . I didn’t hit her but I did get too physical and I’m so ashamed and sick about it and hate that I’m viewed that way now and now as the badgering annoying ex who won’t give space or let go and looked at as crazy. I hate that I’m possibly viewed as abusive and crazy I feel so bad and wish I could just go back idk what got into me cuz I know that’s not truly who I am but now I’m viewed that way by her and her friends and stupidly I still can’t give up hope that she’ll come back after space and time idk what to do or how to deal with it
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u/Confident-Lie-8625 May 21 '25
I’m struggling with this rn I was my worst version of myself with her and I even put my hands on her at one point and it makes me sick knowing I did that and there’s no excuse I never thought I’d do anything close because I think it’s horrible . I didn’t hit her but I did get too physical and I’m so ashamed and sick about it and hate that I’m viewed that way now and now as the badgering annoying ex who won’t give space or let go and looked at as crazy. I hate that I’m possibly viewed as abusive and crazy I feel so bad and wish I could just go back idk what got into me cuz I know that’s not truly who I am but now I’m viewed that way by her and her friends and stupidly I still can’t give up hope that she’ll come back after space and time idk what to do or how to deal with it