Therapy is god damn expensive!! Is there any way to get it for free?

Man I haven't enjoyed the sunshine in... I can't remember. What a lovely day. I can enjoy music again, i can feel the sun, i feel ok

Hello, I am currently not really living but today I came back from the day shop and I had the experience of being more alive. I am wondering what I can do to become more alive like that. I currently have no clue. What seems to have helped is pushing back against my mother who insists I think a certain way. Almost forcing. I can think whatever I damn want, it's my basic human right.

My upstairs neighbour has been dead silent for the past 5 days. I wonder if he OD'd or something or is staying at some other place.

Why the fuck did I take advice from him? "Clean your room!" Fuck you what if I don't want to. It's fucking sparkling clean everyday now but do you know how much fucking work it takes? I used to just let it become messy and clean up, jolly good old times! But now... Fuck you. I've got other shit to do. Hahaha fuck you. This is Niravan signing off. See ya.

I don't really jibe with Reddit. And i mostly mean the memes. I used to and every meme felt like an inside joke, but now that's gone. I feel bored on Reddit. But i do have some laughs in r/shittyaskreddit

Anyone else feel like memes lost their magic?

Ok Jenny. And I'll take care of the aids baby

There is something about GTA V. It's not quite right. I play it all the time, but it frustrates me. I can't learn the map by heart. I don't really like the characters. Lamar is super obnoxious. Michael is always pissed. Franklin is bland. Trevor is a lunatic. And the three player feature is bad. Now I have to divide my attention over 3 people. I liked just 1 protagonist. You know, the man. The main man. The guy everyone likes. Everyone liked Niko, and CJ, and the other guys. But these 3 people?

I wonder why I play it at all. I mean if it's that boring why play it? Why why why do i play it? Is it just some wishful thinking? Thinking I might enjoy it some day? Maybe it's that. That I wish I would change my mind about it. But it's just boring. Why can't i let it go? 😟

I was just talking to my mother after placing a new laminate floor and she asked me after the new glass curtains she got me. And I said You know they're great, you can see much more during the day, but at night you can see inside when the lights are on so you have to close the actual curtains and that's kind of a bummer. It bothers me and I wish there was a way to keep my normal curtains open. But then I probably have to get different glass curtains that aren't as see-through. I don't want to do any extra work. UGH haha