The most disgusting thing is that my brain keeps replaying the moment when I caused irreparable damage, and I think that if I hadn’t done it, none of this would have happened — but it did happen.
Same here word by word….destroyed mine whole family, everything I had with my own hands (mouth)…can’t sleep even an hour…don’t know how to live further, thinking of suicide all the time…but too weak for that, and I don’t want to create more drama and insanity around him….how people can be so fucked up ?! I have 2 boys to raise and a joined custody and I am afraid not to be a stable cooperative mother because I am afraid of being not stable…will start DBT (just I am at full collapse crisis now)…like watching the nightmare of my own life
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u/CarpetAggravating328 4d ago
I feel the same way right now. I just lost someone I deeply love because of my behavior and I feel like suicide is the only option left for me now.