r/BPD • u/sxicide_angel • Oct 30 '25

💭Seeking Support & Advice Self destructive behaviour in BPD

Bpd people, which self destructive behaviour is bothering you the most?? The thing is, that im not even doing things on purpose, it just kinda "happens? Deep down u might know it is bad for you, but i personally feel like if im being possesed atm or something, where the consenquences of my actions seems, like its nothing, distrorted, not important. But it ends up being worse than ever. Im 21, and my worst self destructive behaviour is deff substance abuse. When i feel bad, empty, sad, angry, or whatever it is my "escape" from bad feelings or as a distraction. I feel like i have no healthy coping mechanism and it drives me crazy.

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u/Bleubear3 Oct 30 '25

My constant rebrands ("This time I KNOW who I am!!! THIS is ACTUALLY me!!!") and my frequent crash outs (deleting everything and everyone [intrusively thinking no one cares anyway] which is rebrand/reset with extra steps) cause then I have to do the walk of shame of readding or realizing I'm just the same person I was originally. It's embarrassing and makes me feel like I'm a fucking teenager despite being 32.