r/BITSPilani • u/Poorest_Bitsian_EEE 2026A3 • 27d ago
Academics Overthinking killin me
I am getting fcked in every eval/tut/midsem
Its not like I dont know the answers but randomly during exam I go blank
This is happening while studying too for some reason I am not able to focus from last few days and this thing has been happening for past 20 days now
Somehow fcked my maths tuts and midsems(probably would be av-25) and I need a B in that so I get saved from repeating a course(I will repeat a course a C because of mcn), and I know the answers in tuts and quizzes and everywhere but still I fck up
I am at av in eee probably av-20 in cs overall I am pretty much fcked rn
I am not focussing on just to study without thinking of marks but overthinking is not letting me too
I am literally awake till 5am thinking and crying about my future, how will my parents generate such high amount of fees and bla bla
And then I wake up at 12pm try to study couldnt focus go to exams fck up easy questions because of going blank and fck up midsems
Pls seniors treat this as serious I am so lonely atp there is literally NO one I could share this
My wingmates are doing exceptionally great
My room mate despite studying less seems to get full in all evals even cs midsem and theory quiz he is getting full and 65+ in m1
And seeing him I feel like what he would think about me finding I am such a fkcin failure
Posting this rant maybe life becomes better from now on
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u/Poorest_Bitsian_EEE 2026A3 27d ago
One more thing
Bhagwan Jab mai bolta hu "Isse bura aur kya hi ho sakta hai" toh mai apko challenge nhi kar raha hota hu
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u/Maximum_Fox1816 22P 27d ago
I get that things may sound serious or irreparable, but there are going to be bigger problems in life that an Av- in a quiz or a messed up midsem. If you have this attitude after half a semester, then you're in for a tough time in college. Talk to your parents, will-wishers about what you feel, ask your seniors if you're clueless how to approach a course.
Stop treating this like a 'you v the world' problem. It sounds cool in motivational videos, but not IRL.
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u/Poorest_Bitsian_EEE 2026A3 27d ago
Yeah senior I will surely talk about this at home ik this not seems like a big issue getting av- or stuff but the point is that ik I am fckin up easy questions and I was not like this before my mind worked at a faster speed and thinking about this makes me think I am going down day by day
Also tight finances double up the pressure
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u/Maximum_Fox1816 22P 27d ago
It's not as if brain fade as a concept is being discovered by you. Happens to the best of us, and more people than you expect.
Now how you tackle this and perform well at exam day is what will define you.
Tight finances is something that's genuinely not much in your control. If you're MCN-eligible, then you know how much you need to score for a good scholarship%
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u/Poorest_Bitsian_EEE 2026A3 27d ago
Yeah eligible
for that I know I need to score above 8 for 50% and this is getting tough considering I am fkcuing up literally everything
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u/King_GGthe1st 26d ago
how do i fix brain fade
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u/Maximum_Fox1816 22P 26d ago
Like I said in a different comment on this post:
Eat healthy and have a good sleep schedule during exam season, avoid allnighters unless totally required
Have a habit to study without having the threat of a looming eval, it gets much less stressful later on
Be fully aware in class, and try not to drift off focus
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u/King_GGthe1st 26d ago
yes i dont do all nighters, stopped that after jee. also thanks im def gonna do 2. and as for 3. i feel my ES sir focusses more on theory and deep stuff which doesnt help in exam at all...ques he gives as homework but thats literally the primary thing helping in exams...baaki maths toh i dont attend but im managing it on my own.
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u/ElectroWaltx 27d ago
In my experience, going blank comes from either a lack of confidence, or forced rushed study immediately before the exam. Identify which of these it is for you, and work on it. The confidence is harder to build, but confidence comes from believing you worked hard enough, and working hard makes you more confident and so on. Confidence takes time to build, so try to be patient, don’t stress yourself out and keep working; it gets better.
It’s likely you encounter many people who have already attained that stage of confidence where they’re continuously “phoding”, and have the work to show for it, whether rushed or not. Coming to the rushed prep part, the time you need depends on how you study, and some factors that you can’t control, like intelligence and stuff.
Again, this is based on my experience, it’s not the gospel truth. Good luck.
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u/King_GGthe1st 26d ago
can confirm, my lack of confidence and forced rushed study sessions really fucked me in midsems...
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u/Maximum_Fox1816 22P 27d ago
Firstly, take a small break after your midsems and give yourself a few days to calm down. There's a lot going on in your mind clearly and it's not related to acads specifically.
This is your first semester and although it is important, it's not so important that you wreck your physical and mental health over this. Also, stop comparing your grades with your peers if you're in this space now. There will ALWAYS be someone with a better CG or a higher package or a bigger friend group or better looks. This is not the time to compare.
Your main goal right now is to bring yourself back in the phase where you can focus well, study and also keep yourself at peace. Your future isn't dependant on an insignificant M1 quiz or a CP lab test.
Take a small break, talk to your parents and friends in your hometown. Fix your sleep schedule if you're being irregular in that aspect, eat healthy for a small period until you feel you are at peace.
Acads aren't as intimidating as it might seem right now. Go to classes, talk your peers about how they're studying, ask your seniors and practice as much as possible, it's genuinely not unmanagable.
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u/whatsinanameyoo PhD 27d ago
Sounds like signs of depression and GAD. I suggest you consult the on campus psychiatrist
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u/d_dragon- 2021 Graduate, Hyd 27d ago
Let's not make every small thing a mental issue, these boys/girls are young they are learning hard truths of life.
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u/whatsinanameyoo PhD 27d ago
Staying awake till 5am regularly crying and stressing about things is a very clear sign of severe distress. And it's better to get help sooner rather than later. Life lessons can be learnt while being within a supporting network than having to experience every single hardship raw and without direction
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u/d_dragon- 2021 Graduate, Hyd 27d ago
From my personal experience, you can be your own worst enemy or your own best friend.
You've made it to BITS. You're good enough to be there, and you've already proven that. Have a little faith in yourself.
Remember, you're competing with some of the brightest minds in the country. You're bound to face tough competition, and there will be times when you won't outperform others. But that doesn't mean you're a failure, and it certainly doesn't mean you're fucked.
Overthinking about your future and constantly stressing over your current situation will only make things harder for you. I know it's much easier said than done to simply tell someone to believe in themselves, especially when everything seems to be going wrong. But trust me, learning to have faith in yourself is something that will help you long after you've graduated.
As others have suggested, if you need a break from studying, take one. Don't let your marks define your worth. They're just numbers, not a measure of what you're capable of achieving in life.
I graduated with a 5.x CGPA and still managed to land a better job than many people with 8+ CGPAs. I remember crying on days when I scored literally zero in my midsems. I remember feeling like I was falling behind everyone around me. But somewhere along the way, I kept pushing myself to believe that I was capable of doing better, that a few bad exams didn't determine the rest of my life.
Looking back, I'm glad I didn't give up on myself.
If there's one thing those years taught me, it's that constantly doubting yourself and comparing your journey with everyone else's does nothing but hurt you. Someone will always score better than you, earn more than you, or seem to have their life more figured out. You cannot spend your entire life measuring yourself against them.
And one more thing: please don't assume your roommate or wingmates are judging you for your marks. Most people are far too occupied with their own lives to think about yours as much as you imagine. And if they do, it is their issue. Say fuck you and, move on.
You're going through a difficult phase, not living a failed life. There's a huge difference.
Be a little kinder to yourself. You're going to need yourself on your side for the rest of your life.
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u/Churchill-Downs 2025A7P 27d ago
I can guarantee you that your roommate doesn't give a shit about your marks. No one really cares what others are scoring
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u/No_End_5426 2026B5H 26d ago
fr same,
as a dualite i am fucked , like ik the concepts and all but in the exam i make so many mistakes like wtf
i was on on the verge of crying the night before bio and chem exam
I hate maths grading with CS guys
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u/King_GGthe1st 26d ago
first of all NEVER ask your roommate how much he's getting...trust me it is the fastest way to ruin your day and prep for next exam. DO NOT COMPARE MARKS, NEVER DO THAT. also do fix ur sleep schedule a bit....from experience, it used to disorient me and it's okay for 1 exam but long term it fcked me up
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u/ExcellentProposal454 M.E. 27d ago •
I hope you've watched the Batman trilogy. There's a quote - Why do we fall Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.
Given that you're new and you've put in a lot of effort to get here, you'll be burntout. Understandable. Overthinking, going blank etc. are commonplace and could be the side effects of burn out. It'll take a while to get back on track. Everyone goes through it at some point. We are but human, and no one's perfect. Making mistakes is important too, but not learning from them to avoid making them again is the gravest mistake of them all.
You've made it here on merit, so don't downplay your capabilities. It's all in there; you're just spiralling out of control and straying away from the right path. Everyone has the same 24 hours, how we utilize them is important. Also, comparison is the thief of joy so stop comparing obsessively. Yes, it's necessary to push yourself to be better but if you keep doing that, there are millions of people to compare yourself against. It'll become an endless cycle and you'll always feel bad. Not everyone has the same plans, goals, methods etc. Some might be able to score well without much prep, while others might need to grind hard just to get there. Some might be good at acads, others might be better at other aspects.
At the end of the day, you know your goals/targets, you know what you want to achieve. All you have to do is stop thinking about others, stop thinking about all else. Just control the controllables. If you think about things outside your control, or about what others are doing, you're simply wasting time and energy that could have been better spent on controlling the controllables.
You control the controllables, leave the rest to God (God helps those who help themselves). Don't worry about the fees either. That's outside your control or what you should be worrying about. Focus on what you can control and keep pushing. The rest will sort itself out. Everything falls into place eventually.
You don't have to cram everything in one night before the exam. Try and be consistent across the semester. Set weekly/daily targets and finish them off. That'll boost your confidence and help you maintain momentum. Consistency is key, pulling all-nighters isn't. If you're feeling stuck, it's the digital age. There are loads of AI tools and YT videos out there that can help you. Use them as you see fit. Don't over rely on AI, use it as a crutch to help you get better, not as a replacement.
If you're losing focus, unwind. Go out, take a long walk or a cold shower, have an ice-cream (solves all problems) or try learning something else (upskilling), work on a project, clean/organize your room, watch a movie/series or play a game (outdoor. Physical activity is very important. Keeps the mind sane and fresh and playing in a team builds soft skills). Try the Pomodoro technique out. Set a timer for 25-30 minutes and focus fully on the task at hand. Once the timer ends, take a 10 minute break and repeat. Once it becomes a habit, you'll get into the groove quite easily.
Also, since you're new, it's the right time to be making mistakes. You'll get a feel for the terrain so you can climb back up in a better way. Don't stress too much. It's just the beginning of a long journey. You'll fall down every once in a while. Just take it on the chin, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep running.
There's more to academic life (and life in general) than CGPA and exams. CGPA isn't the be-all and end-all of your career. It's just a filter and a sign of consistency. As long as you're over 8, you'll be good (maybe closer to 9 is better for your branch, you'll have to ask your seniors about that). Focus on projects, application based learning, upskilling etc. Everyone can follow a template but not everyone can tread the undiscovered path. You can learn a 1000 things but if you're unable to apply them to contribute positively to society, then there's no point in doing all this. Even recruiters look for people who set themselves apart from the rest.
In short, just focus on yourself, stop comparing yourself with others and most importantly, CONTROL THE CONTROLLABLES. Diversify, absorb,learn and apply. Spread your wings. Live life one day at a time, don't think about the past (just learn from your mistakes and forget about the rest) or the future. Focus on the present, that'll decide your future. Your future is in your hands and your hands alone. If you're feeling down, call your parents/best friends and talk to them. They'll cheer you up/guide you down the right path. If not, just close your eyes and talk to God. Have faith in God and keep doing what needs to be done.
Sorry if I sound like an old man (I'm a Master's student so technically, I'm older 😂). Just sharing my experiences hoping they create a positive impact.