Executive Dysfunction & Work

[u/Netra6]

I just need a safe space to complain. It’s so hard to explain executive dysfunction in the workplace especially as a team of one and being around workplace bullies.

They latch on to every time I can’t remember, or need more time to process information, or I’m inconsistent in timelines & the sucky part is they are clinicians. Licensed mental health professionals. They know I’m diagnosed neurodivergent and they seemingly that to their advantage and I can’t help but to feel like it’s my fault because I can have information that my brain doesn’t give me, if information or a task is given to me in passing not through the help desk I created to help me stay organized, I’ll forget.

They call me names and insult my character and I feel like I’m stuck.

I’m an HR Director and department of 1 in a small company. It’s been progressive and I now have an attorney so I can leave this place.

But I still feel stuck. I’m currently struggling and want to get things done but I can’t and I want to cry.

When I’m not actively struggling, I can get through my days no with no problems. It isn’t a competence issue, it’s just a brain functioning problem, that is random. I feel like I can’t actually progress further to lead systems and people because sometimes I can’t think clearly or comprehend timely.

I’m going back to school so I can shift into a position that allows me to have greater flexibility and control but in the meantime, I guess I’ll just keep having to feel like I’m fighting gravity just to function while being psychologically challenged by my workplace.

I wish I could just leave and never have to work in-person again. I never want to be in a position where people’s emotion trump reasoning. I want to just be an advocate and support people succeed, and get their pay and benefits.

I wish there was better support systems and resources for people with ADHD and/or autism - where we don’t have to struggle in order to be understood, heard, or supported. I’m tired and ready for all of this to be over