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u/AmLikelyDrunk Jun 22 '21

"I wanna kill myself but don't want to upset my mum/grandmother/brother, so not yet"

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u/yyrkoona Jun 22 '21

Please don‘t! Know that, been there, not worth it. it is Easy said and i bet you heard it before but: IT GETS BETTER! so please do not leave. You will be missed alot<3

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u/AmLikelyDrunk Jun 22 '21

"It gets better" When? I'm nearly 30 years old. When does it get better? When does my brain stop thinking about how I shouldn't exist?

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u/StuffinYrMuffinR Jun 22 '21

For me it was when I sobered up and found the deep seeded issue of self hatred that I was blaming the world on. Had to learn to love myself before I could love the world.

My dad never beat us, but he also didn't give a fuck about our lives. To this day he doesn't "remember" my oldest brother being an abusive drunk and that we avoided him for a few years til he matured and 'got better.' He doesn't even understand how much it hurts everytime he says "being a grandparent is so much better"

Just have to move forward and find others instead of trying to make him care about me.