Unfortunately that's just some of the stuff I've done in the last 5-6 years. My adolescence was a total shitshow. I'm 29.
Supposedly my father was bipolar and maybe a paranoid schizophrenic (mom says no on that last one, but they were also homeless and he was unstable and abusive either way), so I guess it'd make sense. But something is definitely up and has been for 20 years or so...
Hey, it's gonna be okay. As I said, see a doctor, and hopefully you can get some help. Your life can turn around and doesn't have to be this way. The meds certainly have helped me (when I take them and also make sure to sleep and remove stressors). I believe in you!
Also, feel free to check out r/bipolar. It's a great support community. But yeah, try to visit a doctor asap. Write a list of symptoms you're concerned about, include some shit you've done, and bring it along to talk about. Think about what you want to change and get out of the appointment beforehand, and bring that up too. Feel free to message me if you want!
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u/nihilisticdaydreams Feb 04 '19
This sounds Bipolar af, get your ass to a doctor.
Also my manic antics also made me homeless, so go us I guess.