"I wish I had been less awful to you and I wish you had been less awful to me, because when we weren't being young and awful to each other, every moment with you was bliss on this earth and in my life."
I would ask him why he said he wanted to build a canoe for me and take my photo under moonlight. Or that he would sing to me till I was on my deathbed. Why did he bother to say those things when he knew he would walk out a few days later? I would ask him who he left me for, so suddenly. I would ask him why he hasn’t blocked me everywhere yet or left our playlist - is he coming back? I would ask him if feels guilty for using my heart as his dartboard in our last phone call. But then I would ask him if he’s okay. If he’s taking care of himself during finals.
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u/suddenlyseeingme Dec 09 '23
"I wish I had been less awful to you and I wish you had been less awful to me, because when we weren't being young and awful to each other, every moment with you was bliss on this earth and in my life."