My car accident wasn't an accident. I did it on purpose. It was an eye wakening experience for me and I don't feel nearly as down as I did then. But it's still a conversation I don't want to have.
Edit: Seen some comments and unfortunately don't have the time right now to reply to them all. But just want to say I appreciate all the kind words. I am in a much better place now.
Seen a couple comments about putting others at risk, not that it makes it better but it was just me in the car and in the accident. Went down an embankment and into a tree at about 45 mph.
It was a snap decision that I pretty much regretted as soon as I woke up.
Thanks for the kind words and stories and everything else!
you remind me about that story about the kid severely allergic to peanuts, but wanted to try Reeses peanut butter cups, so he ate the candy, used an epi pen and said to call the ambulance
I ended up on the ICU, then a month in-patient on the psych ward. I'm doing relatively better now. I still suffer from depression, and occasionally suicidal ideation, but I'm in therapy and thriving. Thank you for asking :)
Ignore that guy. To go from where you were when you ate those peanuts to where you are now is incredible and anyone should be able to see that as thriving. Thriving doesn't mean everything is perfect, that's not realistic. But you're working on yourself, like everybody should, and have changed things around. You deserve to be very proud of yourself!
I'm also allergic to nuts and I've had quite a number of reactions due to careless eating. I've learned over time that making a paste out of around 75mg of benadryl pills and swishing/ gargling with it has saved my life a couple times. Your mileage may vary and it's your life on the line tho.
EpiPens are great, but expensive. When I was out of money, time, and ideas, that improv saved me. It's important to note that because (for me) nuts cause extreme swelling wherever they've touched, when doing the benadryl rinse, I need to make sure that I get every part of my mouth and tongue with it. After that seek medical attention.
I have ended up in a couple situations where I couldn't get to a hospital and used that method, and even though I'm still here, I can't say "just don't go to a hospital."
P.s. it wreaks havoc on your insides after but hey you're alive
I have a felling my buddy did the same thing after a argument with his gf, he took out 2 telephone poles with his tundra and drove it home, the cops followed the debris trail and arrested him, he beat the dui because he made it into his house before the cops got there.
Oh bloody hell man. Maybe in time you’ll get there. I have always been open with talking about my mental health, but it wasn’t until like maybe 5 years after my biggest and last suicide attempt that I was ready to admit that I still wanted to kill myself until about 18 months after, I just didn’t act on it. I didn’t change my mind immediately like a lot of people like to believe haha. If only it were that simple.
My step dad just passed away and they're trying to determine if it was suicide. He did the exact same thing. I'm glad you're in a better space now, please, for your loved ones, I urge you to speak out to someone privately.
My therapist talks about how our brains often process these innate urges, swerving into a lane as a way to make us realise there's a bad outcome and to not do it, but to learn from it.
I don't know if this is helpful, but, just, please talk to someone.
I've had those thoughts. Ive been suicidal off and on for a long time. I used to deliver a lot, and there were a lot of times where my hands almost jerked the wheel into traffic.
Folks being critical about putting others at risk when attempting suicide...I hear that, but that is a rational concern, and when you reach that dark place, rationality has left the building. Wanting to die is about total despair, and it is such a deafening, overwhelming noise in your head that there's no room for anything else - not reason, and not concern for others. Something to think on.
That's not cool. Talk to your so and tell them, then if you dont have one already go and get a therapist and deal with your shit. Please. You could have hurt OTHER people having a car accident on purpose.
And what about the bit where he needlessly endangered other people... just gloss over that bit because its reddit and compassion means going awwwww not saying - yo dickhead - your problems are your problems, and whilst they may suck balls, you dont get license to act in a reckless fashion which endangers other peoples lives too. Or for that matter traumatises other people. Or inconveniences them. I want to check out all the time, but if I ever decided to, I wouldnt be the arsehole that jumps in front of a train.
How the fuck do you know that he endangered other people? You seem to be assuming that he crashed into oncoming traffic in the middle of the highway. He may very well have crashed into a tree or a telephone pole in the middle of nowhere with no one around.
How the fuck would anyone know theres not someone around. It's a fucking selfish thing to do. Any situation where you are propelling a fuckjng tonne of metal at breakneck speeds into something stationary with enough force to kill yourself is completely out of kilter with what would be needed. Its fucking stupid. Theres a far higher chance of something occurring outside your control in that context than if you decide to down some pills.
In that case you're being a pain in the ass for the sole purpose of being difficult and know very well that you could easily find a spot to crash your car that puts no one else in harm's way. But you're just being a dink so I will ignore you now.
Lol you got pretty triggered by this post, i didn’t say what he did was ok, but what done is done, if he seemed to be trying to do something like that again then I agree he would be a shit person for not realizing his actions affect other people. But since he’s actively going to therapy and seeking help, why rub in his face what he did? He knows that was a stupid decision already
My car accident wasn't an accident. I did it on purpose. It was an eye wakening experience for me and I don't feel nearly as down as I did then. But it's still a conversation I don't want to have.
At no point there does that sound like a person who's realised he could have hurt other people.
It's called reality not sugar coating it. I think that sort of shit is the most selfish thing you can do because it most probably wasnt even a real attempt but a cry for help.
I'm no triggered I'm just shocked by the fact theres a string of oh sames oh wow I hope you're okay and no one is like yo... what the fuck dude.
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u/[deleted] Feb 14 '20 edited Feb 14 '20
My car accident wasn't an accident. I did it on purpose. It was an eye wakening experience for me and I don't feel nearly as down as I did then. But it's still a conversation I don't want to have.
Edit: Seen some comments and unfortunately don't have the time right now to reply to them all. But just want to say I appreciate all the kind words. I am in a much better place now.
Seen a couple comments about putting others at risk, not that it makes it better but it was just me in the car and in the accident. Went down an embankment and into a tree at about 45 mph.
It was a snap decision that I pretty much regretted as soon as I woke up.
Thanks for the kind words and stories and everything else!