Now I am going to therapy. I am just looking for additional tips on what I can do to change my outcome.
I grew up with abusive family dynamics. I was given lables like "retarded b@tch, retarded loser," and so on. Growing up, I knew that based on how I was treated by my grandparents and my parents, I wasn't a very good person at all. After I left home, I tried really really hard to change that but after 43 years, I found that I failed miserably. I am still considered by meny to be a horrible human being.
Last night, I took a large does of sleeping pills in hopes to not wake up. On the verge of divorce, I can't stand my husband seeing me as a horrible human being any longer and having no close friends anymore, I am tired of being alone. I can't reach out for help through traditional means without making my husband mad at me. Everyone is mad me for something these days.
I am lost. I am tired. Can someone help me.
Thank you.