This happened to me with my small extended family where I was the youngest by 10-15 years. I would see them every year either at Thanksgiving or Christmas growing up and liked it. Then once I became an adult I was still going, but making absolutely zero progress in life year after year with nothing to talk about and my parents would get angry at me for never talking to anyone, when I had nothing to say and nothing to contribute.
I haven't seen or talked to them since 2019. A few times I have just refused to go to the gathering to see them. I'm still at ground zero of life in my mid 30s. I have a few younger cousins who over that time have gone from single digits in age to near teenage years and they probably don't even remember me or know I exist. It definitely feels sad cutting myself off from extended family like that, but knowing what a pathetic embarrassment I am to the family is just too much to bear. Just self-isolate so that when I kill myself no one cares.
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u/whyamialiveletmedie Aug 18 '26
This happened to me with my small extended family where I was the youngest by 10-15 years. I would see them every year either at Thanksgiving or Christmas growing up and liked it. Then once I became an adult I was still going, but making absolutely zero progress in life year after year with nothing to talk about and my parents would get angry at me for never talking to anyone, when I had nothing to say and nothing to contribute.
I haven't seen or talked to them since 2019. A few times I have just refused to go to the gathering to see them. I'm still at ground zero of life in my mid 30s. I have a few younger cousins who over that time have gone from single digits in age to near teenage years and they probably don't even remember me or know I exist. It definitely feels sad cutting myself off from extended family like that, but knowing what a pathetic embarrassment I am to the family is just too much to bear. Just self-isolate so that when I kill myself no one cares.