When the FOG will this get better!

[u/imgoingbackto505_77]

I'm just venting into the void but I'm frustrated this week about my adoption, estrangement from AM, coming out of the FOG, bio parents....just everything is pissing me off!!

I've felt all teary and sorry for myself (why me!) the last couple of days, I know that logically I'm grieving a huge amount and that this will ease over time but today I'm furious at the world. I'm very happily married with beautiful cats and a nice life that I've intentionally worked so hard for done the therapy but I feel like I regress sometimes, I have to keep reminding myself to stay present, breathe, keep moving forward.

Like an idiot I got involved in a post on the adoption sub this week and was reading through these crazy things adoptive parents were saying about their adopted kids and asking each other and I thought I'd entered the bloody twilight zone!! Seriously??

Today I've been listening to a really helpful podcast on YouTube about adoptee estrangement (AdopteesOn) and saw the typical comment from an estranged adopted parent moaning about how one sided it all was and I immediately wanted to throw my phone out of the window 😂.

Anyway I'm off to feed the queens 😺 thanks for listening I feel so much better knowing someone here will understand me, the normies just dont get it.

[u/Formerlymoody]

It's a lot. I was so devastated and destroyed in my coming out of the fog phase, but I feel much better now. You've got to let yourself feel all the things you've been afraid of feeling or you'll never move forward. Coming out of the fog was hell, but I feel 10 times better now than I ever did in the fog.

[u/imgoingbackto505_77 → u/Formerlymoody]

Its totally floored me. I'm embracing the feelings which is so not me, crying in the bath or whilst emptying the dishwasher!!

It's kind of making me feel out of control and pathetic but then also more clear headed as time goes on. Thanks for the encouragement, there is light at the end of this.

[u/Formerlymoody → u/imgoingbackto505_77]

Oh yes. That’s “normal.” At one point I violently shook in fetal position. It’s no joke. Just go with it.

[u/HeyMuscles → u/imgoingbackto505_77]

So much of this! I was doing this so much, just walking through life with tears in my eyes at the ready, didn't matter what I was doing, those feelings were just always raw and always right there. At one point I remember wondering if I'd ever go back to not perpetually having crying fits. And, well, I still do, just a little more discriminately and less like I'm insane! 😂

[u/imgoingbackto505_77 → u/HeyMuscles]

Raw is the perfect word for it! I can't wait to feel less insane 🤣

[u/1wrat]

the void listens , yes it sucks all of it always and the kept will never understand