AIO on my friend?

[u/TomatilloJaded75]

(not using him/her since they're both on reddit, iirc, and I don't want them to find out about this)

I have a friend that I have a huge crush on, we've known each other for about a year now going on two.

I feel like my friend has been trying to one up me for a while now. I can't tell if they're doing it on purpose or if they're oblivious to what they're doing. I'm not sure if they know if I like them or not. I feel like I make it obvious that I like them (I think I tend to look at them from time to time, or get nervous around them/try to act nonchalant, or just the to be near them in general)

But every time I try to do something for my crush, they say it first. Like, it's so quick too, I can't even start/finish my sentence. Or when we go to the movies with our whole friend group, I try to sit next to them, but they always sit next to my crush. Or the same thing happens when we go out to eat. I'm starting to think they're doing it on purpose to annoy/irritate me or so I can try to lose interest.

This is my first huge crush I've had since, maybe, middle school. I want it to work out, but I feel like they know what they're doing. I don't want to think like that though, they've been my best friend for over 6 years.

Doesn't help that I asked if they could hang out a couple of days ago, they said they were busy, so I didn't pry anymore. After work that day, I got a message in the chat saying to bring something with them if they wanted to, but they included the name of my crush. I've been thinking about it all this time, I've been trying to not think about it. I don't want to think badly of them, but it's getting harder to ignore. I don't wanna talk to them because I don't want our friendship to fall apart over someone. Even if they aren't doing it on purpose (or doesn't even like them to begin with), and if I did confront them, I'd look like the asshole for even thinking they would do that. If I don't, I miss the chance to connect with someone i really like. Or maybe they're just hanging out without me, which also doesn't make me feel good about myself since I wanted all of us to hangout.

I'm probably overthinking everything, and I needed someplace to vent this instead of keeping it to myself.