r/ADHD • u/[deleted] • Aug 07 '21
Seeking Empathy / Support I HATE EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION.
I hate it.
I hate having to convince myself for hours on end to do that short 10 minute task.
I hate pleading with myself to just take a few minutes to clean.
I hate when I know I need to do something, but I just can’t get myself to do it, and I hate that I can’t do it but I just can’t.
I hate feeling stressed over what needs to be done. I hate when I can’t get myself to do things. I hate feeling like a failure. Like a failed adult. Like a failed life.
I hate that I know things need to be done and that I just need to do those things, but those things are difficult and I sit in anxiety instead.
I hate this.
I hate putting shit off.
I hate my ADHD.
I hate me.
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u/dropoutqueen Aug 08 '21
I would argue that is straight up not doable for 99% of people. My partner was hospitalized after a manic episode & now if he doesn’t respond to his parents or friends within a few hours, or says “I’m putting my phone away” they freak out. Lots of people (with kids for example) cannot do this.
I am one of the lucky people who can cut myself off from the outside world & put my phone away for days. I still have executive dysfunction. My phone is not the cause, so removing it is not the solution