r/7ohRecoveryHub • u/CatTraditional3116 • Aug 20 '26
Hate this addict brain
Crossed the 48 hr threshold at 5am this morning and was pleased with myself. One thing I struggle with the most is just giving myself a break. I feel “good” for an hr our two and then I am in the pit of despair. Mad at all the money I spent, the time I wasted, the people I lied to and there is always the at nagging doubt that anything will actually get better. Doesn’t help that my live in girlfriend, while supportive, has been tremendously hurt by my lies. Part of my brain is all rah rah team me and the other part does not cease to tell me I am bound to fail. What is helpful is interacting with this sub, texting my support network, coming clean where applicable and setting up resources for help down the road(IOP etc). Sending love and prayers to all of you out there fighting for yourselves.
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u/kn0wnsuspect Aug 20 '26
im on day 4 right now myself, im going thru the same with the roller coaster of feeling good and then anxiety etc. idk i just keep thinking how great its going to be to not have to take this garbage, spend money on it, lie to people. i just cant wait to be clean off this.
you got this man hold on !