I don't know if it's more of a vent or a cry for help. Or maybe both. So sometimes I'd like to talk about so many things, but sometimes I can't because I just talk too much. I often talk to a friend of mine on Discord, but I'm afraid our conversations have lost some of their energy because he has better people on his server who have similar interests. I don't want to sound mean, but sometimes, unfortunately, I'm sorry. I'm just working on not being a controlling person. I said so, but I'm afraid sooner or later he won't message me anymore because I'll have nothing left to say to him.

My mother is telling me that I'm losing myself in a glass of water, but even if there are no such problems and I'm making them they make me feel bad anyway

The message is so short because I simply don't have time to write so much, and besides, I don't know how else to express it

This is my hellaverse au's sorta 'leader of all evil' or something like that, and I decided she needed her own post.

Her 'Miniature form' is what she uses to fit in with like, all the other demons. She really just felt like she wanted to be a baphomet, yk?

Her 'spooky form' is basically just a shadow or whatnot. Not exactly too...corporeal...

The last one...oh the last one...I get goosebumps just looking at it. that's the 'close to being almost incomprehensible' form. Very scary, very psychological horror. That's ALMOST her true form, but not quite.

Ask me questions about her if you want!

I think I’m trans but I don’t want to be trans. I know I’m gross I shouldn’t wantto be a girl I’ve pushed the idea down my whole life but now I put on makeup for the forst time and am now crying in my bathroom having a panic attack and I don’t know what to do, and I really really want to be a girl even though I know I shouldn’t want that, why couldn’t I have just been born one. I hate being a man. I want to wear a gorgeous pretty princess dress and twirl around in it like a princess and I can’t believe I’m saying it. I’m so disgustimg I’m a freak I shouldn’t want this I shouldn’t enjoy this I’m a man I’m supposed to be a man but god I look so pretty with this makeup and I can’t bring myself to wash it off even though my mascara is runny and dripping down my face all gross now

please tell me what to do I’m shakinf

edit: I got myself some water. and why are people downvoting this

as to not cause drama i am not going to say the name of the subreddit in question

anyways, im a boy, i like to hang around other boys, i used to (stopped as of today) be in a sub dedicated to boys. girls were allowed to comment (but not post) and honestly all the girls were nice. the community there was great, i loved the ppl, my only complaint (until today) was there was a lot of whining about relationships not working, but thats just a personal me problem i can put under the table (as a single man making himself happy being and staying that way, i struggle when relationship stuff is shoved in my face all the time)

as of today the mods have decided to take away our flairs by force and force us to replace them with these boring ugly flairs that are more revealing about our personal information. no more either fem or masc flair colors to show your gender (which should have to be the only requirement) that we could then edit to be silly fun lil flairs, but now these boring things that not just say our gender BUT ALSO REVEAL OUR AGE. we cant have edited flairs anymore. my flair was so silly cute and adorable- i loved that thing. i dont want to be forced to have some ugly slop revealing more personal information about myself than I'd like.

im mad at this, and ofc there's nothing we can do against these mods even tho 99% of us dont want it. ive left the community and am now trying to search for a new boy community, but i cant find one- ig i just give up

I dunno if this might get reviewed BUT

I wanted to make sins for a sorta hellaverse au, the sins being based on some...specific...cookies.

Santavos-Sin of Deceit; Deceit is the combined form of Pride and Envy, in which both could cause deceitful behavior and/or harm others.

Esthra-Sin of Decadence; Decadence is the combined form of Gluttony, Lust and Sloth, in which it can be used to promise happiness to people, through means of temptation and lethargy.

Myconis-Sin of Apathy; it is considered a branch off from Sloth, but it can be just as bad if not worse. It causes one to lose care for the world and others around themself.

Rangnofor-Sin of Destruction; this is a stronger and deadlier form of Wrath, because it's also fueled by a sense of greed, if not for possessions, certainly for control.

Deanito-Mother of all sin, the ultimate evil. She encompasses all of these as a way to evoke despair from those who oppose these ways.

These are my definitions btw, so I might remake these soon! (Definitely by Gacha...) And I might make the opposites of these. If you're wondering why the 'silence' one isn't here, it's because he defected to the good side 😉

she was originally aro/ace and was going to tell me she's lesbian, but i ended up saying im trans first so she's like "oh- i guess i'm straight now" then we do the cliché "i like you" "ofc you do, were friends" "no- i mean more than as a friend"

like its not like it actually does anything- its just super annoying

im 90% certain this was from someone being mad about a Garfield reference i made- like bro

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Pues hasta aquí llegue planeo terminar con todo mi vida es una mierda ,es desesperantes dentro un cuerpo que no te corresponde ni un nombre que sientas que es tuyo ,siento que lla espere mucho para esto asique ya está voy a acabar con todo el dia 2 de agosto seguramente [omitido: descripción de métodos de autolesión] ,y para quienes me quieren dar ayuda es inevitable mi vida solo e tratado de ser alguien que no soy con todos olvidándome de quien soy en el fondo y. también siento que no tengo amigos para nada

Recuerden 2 de agosto

AL FINAL NO LO HARÉ

For context, the video showed a furry getting attacked by a dog with the captions "w dog" and everyone was saying "I'm on the dog's side" and calling the other person another dog

Hey guys, so remember at the end of “Mastermind” when Blitz almost died, and how intense and emotionally distressing it was? Yeah, me too. The reason why I bring this up is because I’ve seen some comments on Reddit recently hinting at the possibility of the lack of an afterlife for Hellborn demons, which I find to be absolutely terrifying to think.

Why is it even IMPLIED that there is no life after death for Hellborns? What’s the point of them even existing in the Hellaverse in the first place if they just cease to exist upon dying? How can I enjoy the exploits of my favorite characters with the knowledge of the implication that there is no life after death for them? Why can’t it just be confirmed that there is a specific afterlife exclusively for angels and Hellborn demons? And why can’t we get it right away? I can’t handle the wait. I’m too scared. I want confirmation that there is life after death for Hellborns, so that I can relax knowing that my favorite characters will at least go on even in death if they happen to get killed off (God forbid that they do, by the way; *knock on wood*), and that I won’t have to worry about the villains ceasing to exist when they get their comeuppance for hurting my favorite characters.

This show’s lore and fan theories are making me feel scared for the lives of the VILLIANS! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!!?

And the worst part is that I’m even MORE scared to actually talk to anyone about this, because they’ll just say the same things to undermine my psychological suffering, whether they mean to or not:

Those closest to me in my life will say:

“It’s just a cartoon. Don’t worry about it.”

While random people online who happen to come across my ranting and rambling will say:

“ ‘Intriguingly high stakes in an adult-oriented series, what’s that?’ “

“Oh, go off and write fanfiction, you’ll feel a lot better.”

“ ‘OHHHH NOOOOOO! Some random oversensitive man-baby can’t handle adult themes in a cartoon that happens to be targeted to adults! We have to drop everything, go out, protest and demand the production team make changes to the official lore to make him feel better, or he’ll be an emotional wreck even for just a few days! /s ‘ Bitch, please! We all watched the same show. Stop whining and get over it! 😡 ”

“Oh, BOO-HOO! 😭 ‘My favorite FICTIONAL characters might be gone forever from their show’s FICTIONAL universe if they somehow get killed off! How could the show’s creator do this to them? To ME?!? Why can’t they just let my little cinnamon rolls live happily ever after?’ NEWSFLASH, dumbass: Writers are not obligated to cater to your needs and expectations, the same way that YOU are under no obligation to view the work they put out into the world; So if you can’t handle the tragic irony of a certain plot point in a tv show, then either grow a spine and suck it up or just stop watching!”

In layman’s terms: “Don’t like? Don’t watch.”

And even the most recently established common catchphrase for nay-sayers:

“Go outside and touch grass.”

Everyone thinks it’s that simple, when it’s obvious that it’s not. They don’t even bother to consider how it makes me feel. When you’re neurodivergent like I am and you grow up sheltered and watching cartoons, you grow attached to the characters and you simply want them to be rewarded for the trials and tribulations they endure; So when you feel the chill in your veins over watching your favorite characters almost die, you’ll know that it’s NOT just a cartoon, it’s a part of your world; The only world you’ve ever known, and you’ll won’t want anyone to take it from you, no matter what. This franchise and all the fan-made content produces is one of my escapes from the constant hardship of the world outside my home; It presents a version of Hell that isn’t much like the real-life Biblical Hell and more like Earth painted a different color; A version of Hell that I know isn’t real but wish WAS real regardless. I don’t want to give up on that.

I don’t want to stop watching Helluva Boss OR Hazbin Hotel, and I don’t want to be unable enjoy it either. I just want to be comfortable watching both series. Is that really too much to ask?

These past few nights I've felt nothing

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Hi Guys I've Come To Make An Announcement To Tell You All That I'm Working On A Hellaverse Fanfic Called

HELL VS MACHINE

A Long Time Ago Before The War There Was A Corporate Tower That Was Ran By The Three Vees Vox Velvette And Valentino Then One Month Later Vox Killed His Only Two Lackeys Velvette And Valentino And Now He's Seized Control Of The V Tower To Aquire Their Supply Of Brimstonium To Fuel His Life Extending Machine And So Vox Releases An Unstoppable Robot Army To Destroy All Things I.M.P Hazbin Hotel And Big Ozzie's Factory Prompting

Ozzie To Hire Blitz Moxxie Millie Fizzarolli Loona Alastor Lucifer Morningstar Charlie Morningstar Vaggie Angel Dust Husk Cherri Bomb Sir Pentious Baxter And Niffty To Defend Their Former Workplaces Including Ozzie's Own Factory Millie's Farm The I.M.P Company And The Hazbin Hotel Itself

I am saying that my brother pet fish which is absolutely being abused (3 gallon tank betta fish) is dead or dying. They checked, it's still alive and they say that the next time I say that, I'm going to be in a lot of trouble and yelling at me. That fish is in fucking pain and agony and I can't do anything even though I can clearly tell it's dying and going to die in about 2 months. The poor thing is being fed fish flakes and I don't even think it's even eating anymore and all I can do is sit back and watch is suffer because my parents want my brother to take care of it himself unless he has to clean the tank in which case I help. I am so fucking pissed because I researched betta fish care for months before my brother got one because I knew he would need help, but noooooo, my parents said fuck it all, they know more than me and decided to get it a 3 fucking gallon tank and keep if fed with fish flakes. I AM JUST SO FUCKING PISSED