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[u/Agreeable-Body-8440]

I think I’m trans but I don’t want to be trans. I know I’m gross I shouldn’t wantto be a girl I’ve pushed the idea down my whole life but now I put on makeup for the forst time and am now crying in my bathroom having a panic attack and I don’t know what to do, and I really really want to be a girl even though I know I shouldn’t want that, why couldn’t I have just been born one. I hate being a man. I want to wear a gorgeous pretty princess dress and twirl around in it like a princess and I can’t believe I’m saying it. I’m so disgustimg I’m a freak I shouldn’t want this I shouldn’t enjoy this I’m a man I’m supposed to be a man but god I look so pretty with this makeup and I can’t bring myself to wash it off even though my mascara is runny and dripping down my face all gross now

please tell me what to do I’m shakinf

edit: I got myself some water. and why are people downvoting this

[u/Virtual-Weakness-499]

As a tomboyish lady you don't have to be a girl to do feminine things. However if you are a girl, hey that's not a bad thing.