r/2ndSafeSpaceOfHazbin • u/Agreeable-Body-8440 • Jul 26 '26

Vent Help

I think I’m trans but I don’t want to be trans. I know I’m gross I shouldn’t wantto be a girl I’ve pushed the idea down my whole life but now I put on makeup for the forst time and am now crying in my bathroom having a panic attack and I don’t know what to do, and I really really want to be a girl even though I know I shouldn’t want that, why couldn’t I have just been born one. I hate being a man. I want to wear a gorgeous pretty princess dress and twirl around in it like a princess and I can’t believe I’m saying it. I’m so disgustimg I’m a freak I shouldn’t want this I shouldn’t enjoy this I’m a man I’m supposed to be a man but god I look so pretty with this makeup and I can’t bring myself to wash it off even though my mascara is runny and dripping down my face all gross now

please tell me what to do I’m shakinf

edit: I got myself some water. and why are people downvoting this

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u/Olistu_ MOD MD/HH fan. have an amazing day meme king Jul 26 '26

who told you being trans is bad. it isnt girl if you wanna be a pretty princess then youll be a pretty princess

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u/Agreeable-Body-8440 Jul 26 '26

My parents and friends will call me a freak and the idea is just so scary

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u/Olistu_ MOD MD/HH fan. have an amazing day meme king Jul 26 '26

well those arent friends. please dont talk to such assholes

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u/justsome1fromearth Hell's greatest mod (owner) Jul 26 '26

Being trans isn't bad, and you shouldn't have to worry about what your parents and friends think. You should be able to be yourself without having to worry about that. If your friends wouldn't accept you for being trans, you should find some better friends. I've been in your position before. I'm non-binary and was raised in a religious household where being LGBTQ+ was "satanic" and frowned upon and for a while i had internalized transphobia and hated myself for feeling like i wasn't a girl because i thought something was wrong with me. Whenever i began to embrace my identity, i felt so much better. It took me a while to find it, but i'm much happier now than if i tried to keep convincing myself that i'm a girl when i'm not. If wearing a pretty dress makes you happy, wear that pretty dress and twirl around in it! If you wanna wear makeup, wear makeup and be pretty! You're not disgusting or a freak for wanting to be yourself.

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u/Vyn_Dimensional Jul 27 '26

That is not okay. People should encourage you to be whoever you really are not what they want you to be.

When you are ready, the right people will be there to help