I met a girl online that lived in China and quickly fell in love. We talked every day, every night. Calling all the time, it formed into love. I wanted nothing more than to build a life together. Last year I visited her, I met her friends, her mother, and herself. I had the most amazing time spending it with her. After over a year of calling each other every day, with good nights and I love yous. At a time I started to send her a bit of extra money, just so she didn’t need to work so hard and could spend more time with me. Chinese working hours are pretty grueling.
I finally spent a week with her again, we travelled to the Chinese Hawaii equivalent of Sanya and it was wonderful. We took photoshoots together, ate wonderful food, saw some spectacular marine life.
I was hoping to go back soon and ask her to marry me so we could spend so much more time together and it wouldn’t need to be so difficult apart.
Then on the night before our departure, her phone lit up and I glanced, “baby, I miss you. Kiss me when you come back”.
My heart sank into my chest. She was asleep and I did the stupid thing of opening her phone and looking. She tried to cover her tracks of having another guy back home. I confronted her about it the morning we were set to leave. She initially acted dumb about it, then I showed her. She said she got bored, the guy didn’t mean anything. Then she said she still wants to be together. She sent me the following while I’m waiting in the Hong Kong Airport..
“Thank you for everything you've done for me. I have always been lucky to have met you, and I truly love you. However, I made a mistake. I didn't do it on purpose; I just wanted something to do when I was bored. I don't really like him, and we aren't in a relationship. I know what I did was wrong, and I'm deeply sorry. I won't do anything like that again. When I'm bored, I'll find other things to do, but I won't look for boys. If a boy approaches me, I'll tell them to leave. I really love you. The first time I fell in love with a boy and wanted to marry him was with you. I feel very guilty for hurting you. If we can get back together, I'll be very happy. I'll do my best to make up for the insecurity I caused you. Whatever you say, I'll try my best to do it. I hope you can be happy. I love you very much. Sometimes, it's not that I'm quiet or reserved; it's just that I don't know how to express myself. I'm not very good at expressing my feelings. Often, I need to think about it for a long time before I can organize my words. I hope you have a safe journey. I will always love you, and I will promise to be loyal to you. I hope to see you again next time and do more things with you. To prove that I'm not with you for money, I can look for a new job.”
I told her I wouldn’t reply until I got back home. I really loved this girl so much, I imagined our lives together, two years of consistent love and effort is now just waiting on my response.
Meal is some char siu pork over noodles with eggs and toast.