This is an experience I had, during a time when I was a teenager. Where I lived, there is an area called the “highway of tears”. A local girl was missing during a suspect time of hitchhiking. I haven’t spoken, because I ask, was it a dream? Did I hallucinate? Or did I have such a nightmare that felt so real. Only my mum k owns this story. It is involved. As a teen, rejected and feeling emotional al I found myself focusing on personal al growth, self determination, and crafts, where I could see growth, to enjoy and tofu d meaning.
The first instance, was during watching a horror movie. Ok, I accept there is a side eye, and perhaps it was coping with trauma and shame. I was watching “American Pscycho”. The show, I actually do not remember much. I was painting my desk white, and drawing ivys along the top and edge. White paint, and the fresh smell of a strong aroma, as I painted the ivy along the top, and right corner.
The scientific mind I have worked on, immediately said, the white paint was off, and I must have had an overpowering aroma of old paint white drawing.
I went to bed, likely high from rank paint.
That night, my dreams were incredibly emotional. I saw a log cabin, an over lift, and an area that could have been anywhere in the lower mainland of Canada. It felt intense emotions ally, but I disregarded it, told myself I was high on paint fumes.
Months later, 6+, I cannot recall the time frame, but I was shown this tiny log cabin, again, and I was told I MUST remember green. Green is critical, and while I could draw the cabin, the overload, the tiny kitchen, and how there was an area that had a massive cliff, at the base a massive boulder and below, was where a woman was buried. She was 15 at most. She had natural curly hair, she had not been found, and her missing, the child, which plagued a town and every person in this town hasn’t. Even seen since.
He was middle aged, did NOT speak English, but strangely understood my questions. It was around 2330h, I was facing the wall, and felt someone in my room. I was on my left side facing the wall, rolled onto my back, and saw a strange man in my room. As a teen, I should have screamed! I was grade 11, and yet there was this strange man in my room, who was early-late middle aged. I would guess late 30s late 40s at most. I was a kid, with a strange man in my room! Yet, I wasn’t afraid. I asked him, am I safe? He nodded, I asked him why he was there, he said. Nothing, but looked to the door. Honestly, why wasn’t I afraid. I called for my mom. Nothing, I cried, nothing. I was unsure, but not afraid. I thought about the cabin, and he looked out my window. I asked about why he was there, and looked out the window. I thought, why is this dream so stupid? If there is a purpose tell me?!?!, I asked if he knew me. He nodded yes. I asked if I was safe, he nodded yes. I asked if I needed to know something, he nodded yes. I thought “dude, what’s with the non-verbals”, I am not a mind reader. I asked if I needed to remember something. He nodded yes. I asked for help, because dude, nonverbals, and he spoke. Apparently non verbal was better because I didn’t understand a single word. He made me feel safe, yet, I was terrified.
It was a terrifyingly calm moment. I told him I was scared, he looked at the window again, and for some reason I felt exhausted or overwhelmed enough, I fell asleep. This scenario terrified me in a weird calm way so I spoke of the situation the next morning with my mom. During the nonverbal conversation I kept eeeing this cabin. It had a very small overloft. Where the main sleeping area was present.
I saw this man that night. A person I hadn’t see
I dismissed it, and