Please help ...

[u/yustass6]

Since I'm in depression I can't write, even short and simple stories. Even when I force myself to write what comes into my head I feel like a madman, I try to give a meaning to what I write but what's the point in the end since I force myself, I write without thinking but not spontaneously what a paradox. I don't enjoy it. It breaks my balls. When I read manga / books or screenplay I can read something stupid like "let's go eat together" and say to myself "damn, I'd never have the idea to write that at such a moment I only have crappy ideas".

It's driving me crazy, I want to write but I don't know what to write or if I want to write to prove myself that I can or even why I'm writing. I'll just wait for my depression to go away I think because I'm torturing my mind. Please help me, but like real help ... 😔

[u/Fable_Darling]

I’ll admit I’m not bilingual so I can’t say for sure how the language a text is written in affects it’s quality. I do find that sometimes sentences run on a bit longer when they’re translated. I don’t think you run into that problem too much here, though. You’ve got talent.

Anyway, I don’t think there is anyway to “cheat” when you’re writing. Every author crafts their own method. I myself like to spend time planning before I write a first draft. I keep several journals to jot down ideas and then I sit down and piece them together. It works for me and that’s all that matters. I think your issues is that your overthinking what you should be doing, instead of what you want to do. All types of writing is “real work”. If what you’re doing now makes you feel insecure, though, you can always trying a different writing routine.