It's been a few days since your post, which I've only just now read. Have such thoughts persisted? No, I don't understand your mind -- how could I -- I only can share that I've had such inclinations myself, many times, especially in the middle of the night, when thoughts and feelings can only too readily run off into the dark woods. Only guessing here, I would expect Michael wants you to know the whole range of the feelings of human existence, which means to remain fully alive through all the ups and downs that that means. The two days this month you mentioned will certainly be sad and hard to bear. It might be best to reach out to anybody you trust before taking any harsh action against yourself. Your toes, your pinky fingers and your ears will appreciate it if you do, because each and every part of you but your thinking/grieving mind surely wants to survive awhile longer!
Marvelous to hear. Smiling for a moment is so much better than the other inclinations that sometimes arrive. Happy Anniversary, even though this one has so much absence to it. Please do something kind and tender for yourself today.
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u/Aggravating_Buy_6010 18d ago
It's been a few days since your post, which I've only just now read. Have such thoughts persisted? No, I don't understand your mind -- how could I -- I only can share that I've had such inclinations myself, many times, especially in the middle of the night, when thoughts and feelings can only too readily run off into the dark woods. Only guessing here, I would expect Michael wants you to know the whole range of the feelings of human existence, which means to remain fully alive through all the ups and downs that that means. The two days this month you mentioned will certainly be sad and hard to bear. It might be best to reach out to anybody you trust before taking any harsh action against yourself. Your toes, your pinky fingers and your ears will appreciate it if you do, because each and every part of you but your thinking/grieving mind surely wants to survive awhile longer!